i just thought...
maybe he'll fall for me if i start wearing more makeup,
or wearing tighter clothing,
or flaunting myself about like one of those fucking cheerleaders.
but no,
he just took me out to dinner.
the happiest hour of my life,
and then when it was over,
on the walk back home;
we went the way by the train tracks,
and he leaned against me in the alleyway;
and he leaned in to kiss me.
but instead,
he licked my neck,
and ripped off my shirt,
and held me up against the wall.
and then he... he...
stuck it to me,
he tore me in half.
he took my soul,
my heart,
my laugh.
he did it as the train was passing by,
and all i could do was wait.
cry...
it took about seven minuets total.
all while no one could hear me scream.
no one could hear me suffer
no one witnessed my evening turn to nightmare from a dream.
and when he was finished,
he threw me on the ground.
he quickly left the scene of his crime,
and me.
i didn't go home that night,
i didn't say a word for a week.
i never told anyone,
i never could get any sleep.
i always thought he'd be there,
waiting outside my window,
waiting for me to slip up again.
waiting... waiting...
all i did,
for seven full days,
was sit on my bed and cry.
and all i could think was:
it was my fault
and how i wanted to die.
but i didn't die,
i was to chicken-shit.
so i went back to school,
and never spoke of it.
and when i saw him,
standing there in the hall,
ha acted like nothing happened,
nothing important at all...
Author notes
in three days, it will be the fifth anniversarry of my rape. this is true. i hope this never happenes to any of you.
Written October 17th, 2005
A contest entry
- tell me your story by idontno.
300 points, ended July 3, 2007, 40 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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im sorry that, that happened to you, its never happened to e but i have friends you have been, so i kinda know how it may feel. i really enjoyed reading this and like porcelain emotion said you feel like your the one in the poem, cuz of the way it was written. very very great write!!!
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Wow, this was great. You can really feel what the speaker feels and it's almost like you're right there, like you're the one in the poem. Great Job, and keep 'em coming.
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thanks shannon. unfortunately this piece is true. i have done few others on the subject. good luck with your contest.
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this is a realy good piece of work and i truly hope that its not true and am truly sorry for the actions of this guy if it is.that is the most horrid and despicable thing a man can do. This is very good and you deserve to win this contest.
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Well done on writing such a captivating piece...I loved the flow and the emotion involved in it. An awesome write indeed.
Keep writing
Countrybabe
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OMG gurl this poem is so sad.. its like i experienced it.. even though it didnt rhyme which it usually better.. this is fucking way better!! i love this write so much and you def. got a change to win!!! i love this write..you did a great way expressing all your anger and feelings and emotion in this poem and thats awesome... i love to read this kind of stuff!!!! you did a really great job!! good luck in my contest!
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