A long day happened
So long ago.
Everything was going wrong and
I wanted things to return to normal.
What is normal to me?
Can it be easily defined
So that all may understand?
There is no light for me
At the end of the lengthy tunnel.
Hope is all gone and the dark
Day continues to drag on.
I remember that day clearly,
Although most of my childhood memories
Left me so long ago
Like the waves of the ocean,
Constantly leaving, never to return.
The memories are so painful
That I’d make them leave if I could.
Some of my memories haunt me
While others feel so much better.
I remember him so very clearly,
His fuzzy mustache brushing
By my face as he kissed me on the cheek.
His plaid shirt always felt so soft
When he gave me a hug.
The smell of aftershave
Always brings the memories of him back
As does the salty tears that I
Cried that day, so very long ago.
Before that day, I could always hear
The sound of them screaming and shouting
And would often be the last thing I would hear
Before I fell asleep at night,
Clutching my teddy bear so tightly.
Some nights there was only silence
That roamed through our house
And those were the scariest nights of all.
In the silence of those dark nights
No one could be sure
Of what was going on or what was about to happen.
On those nights I would have a silent cry
So no one could hear me and know my pain.
I would often cry and cry
Until I could cry no more
The tears would not come,
I had cried too much.
They didn’t tell me where he had gone.
They didn’t tell me what was happening.
They didn’t tell me when it would be over.
They didn’t tell me why he left.
They only thing they would tell me
Is that I wasn’t the problem.
Thoughts of doubt filled my head
Of how this was all my fault.
Was this all just a dream?
Was it all just a myth?
When would this nightmare be over?
When would I wake up?
It must have been my fault.
One long night, after he had left,
While we were all in bed,
While we were all unprepared,
He broke in, leaving haunting memories.
That day was the worst of them all
And I can still remember it as clear as day.
We stacked up all our stuff
Like a large brick wall.
We made sure that he wouldn’t return
And for that I’m thankful
To have such a caring mother.
She is always there for me,
To love and protect.
I just hope that one day,
I can pay her back.
He left so suddenly
That I could barely say good-bye.
That last hug was the saddest
And I wish It would have last forever.
Forever…..
But no world is perfect,
No life is perfect
So why should mine be any different?
I had many dreams;
I had many plans;
I had many goals,
But now that’s all gone and my heart is empty.
Will those feelings ever return?
Will life ever be the same?
If there’s one thing in life that I’ve learned it’s that
You can’t change today or yesterday,
But you can change tomorrow.
Look on to the future and don’t look back.
By: Sharcu(Tim)
Author notes
Alright, I personally don't like this poem. I wrote this about 7 months ago or so. I could probably rewrite it and do a much better job, but I probably won't. We'll see.... This is basically when my parents got divorced. This is the only poem I've written on the subject. Some of it is fictional, but most of it is true.
Written October 16th, 2005
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Very Brave..
If I were you (which I'm not) I would leave this peice well enough alone.
It is passionate, it is lovely, it is raw, it is vulnerable, but it is YOU. You at your very best and worst feeling of the moment.
You let yourself feel what you felt, and told your story in that moment.
I love you for who you are in this piece...
Please don't re-write it... I BEG you. -
allpoetry.com/Poem/1675987
This was the contest poem. -
allpoetry.com/Poem/1498959 That's one of them. The other one was a contest poem about child abuse.
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I know how you feel. My parents got divorced when I was five or seven. They got divorced because he was abusive and he sent us to foster care. I'll have to give you the link to that poem later.
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Thank you, Mikle
This isn't one of my best poems and maybe I'll try rewriting it some day. I appreciate you taking the time to read it
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Sad but superb.
Extremely poignant poem Sharcu, time does blunt the pains my friend. A brave write at a difficult heartbreaking time. Mikle. -
heh... woa ok this is late... heh...
wow...
*shakes head* speechless i remain... thats gotta b tough... but God thru all this has a plan... i jsut pray u wont hav to remember the pain...
may there truly b beauty from pain thru u... tho i can already see it!!
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Oh this is so sad. If you ever need to talk about it know I am here. I know you wrote this a while ag...but Its good ,and sad.
Grace -
WONDERFUL POEM
Wow this was very sad. I hope things have gotten better for you now that you have Kelsy and so many wonderful Ap family members. Gos Bless you Tim. Love, Mom
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hugs you tightly. I love you so much. I personally can relate to some of this but on a way different level. I'm so sorry you had to go through all this Tim. I will always be there for you and no matter what, when I am there.. If you need me to.. I will be your teddy bear to hug tightly at night. (no complaining either.. ) I love you so much and it does get better somewhere down the line. Again I love you.. Kelsy
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