It appears I have been wrong my entire life
to think that love will endure all.
Not the type of love that people fall in and out of all the time
but the type that is supposed to transcend all
between two people who have grown together
through good and bad
through all the promises made
whether they were kept or not.
The type of love that should know
that intentions were sincere
even though life got in the way.
The type of love that understands
that the pains that prevent me from living the life I expected
does not exempt only you.
It appears I was wrong
because when my pain became too much for me
and I was unable to be there for the one I most want to be
you found it unforgivable.
Though I spent my life following you around like a puppy
looking for any bit of love and attention sent my way
risking my self respect along the way
it does not give you the right to be disrespectful to me.
When you love somebody
the words they speak and the actions you take
bypass the walls we build
and enter much deeper.
That is why the words you last spoke to me
cut much deeper than most
causing pain and damage
that is much more difficult from which to recover
if it is possible.
I understand that words can be spoken
in the heat of the moment
and possibly might not be meant.
But later actions are thought through
and can even be premeditated
so your choice to BLOCK me from your life
makes the heartache even more unbearable.
By risking all by trusting you
by opening up in such a way
I opened myself up to lose all
which I did.
Because love is everything
and by losing the prior
you lose the latter
and once you lose everything
you realize the truths you held so dear
must not be true at all.
So to run back to you again
I would make a conscious decision
to trash what self respect I have left
and to let you and all others know
that I had done so.
Therefore
it is now all up to you
to once and for all let me know what the truths are
if I was right all along
or if I have been wrong my entire life.
(Is the Moon as beautiful as I have always believed?)
Author notes
Choice #1
Written October 12th, 2005
A contest entry
- Best Friends For Never... (And More) by ThisIsMyWonderland.
300 points, ended January 6, 2006, 18 entries
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aweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sorta makes me wanna cry. Beautiful. Thanks so muhc for entering this, good luck!
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Wow! I really did not expect to get a compliment that nice. Thank you very much.
To explain a little for the purpose of clarity, the person I am writing about, or to, is (or was, hopefully not) one of my oldest and best friends. That is the type of love I am talking about. That is why I wrote, "Not the type of love that people fall in and out of all the time". I was trying to distinguish between boyfriend/girlfriend "love" and real, lifelong friendship love.
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awesome!!! :)
you're new at this? i'm impressed. i don't think i can write as well as that. your poem really exudes sadness. as i said, i was really caught up in the melancholy aura of your poem. you're a great writer.
now, don't be too sad. love takes everyone by surprise and you might be suprised one day, that the girl this poem is directed to will read it. or maybe you'll find someone new who'll meet your expectations.
either way, good luck.
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Thank you very much for your response. I am very new at this, but am trying to explore new things in my life. This poem is actually a very serious one (but I am glad I was able to add a little laughter in your life). It is what I am going through right now. The little note at the bottom is for one individual, even though she probably will never read this. But a guy can always hope. Again, thank you very much.
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that was so sad. so...depressing...yet, a bit funny.
the ending got me there. my gosh...
i was caught up in the sadness of the poem and then when i reach the bottom, i was like, "omg...i can't believe it!" i was laughing for 3 minutes.
i really like this poem...
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