Amaretto

Amaretto
The scent sweet as it fills my nostrils
Drifting softly down the blackened road
It places me in warmth and comfort
I in her arms, she in mine
Over silent words we stare up the lake
The sun sets
As does my dream

I awaken
Steel toes the a rhythmic patter on cement
The flow aimlessly in time down vacant streets
Threading me through dark desolation
The television whispers harsh
over meaningless words and glass clinks
The Canadians
down by two in the third

One week
I spend it without her kind words
Ten days without her sweet voice
I lose my bearings and float
Work without thought or meaning
Stride along my way
No sense of purpose save survival
For one word
For one last smile

An end
Ending this journey I dive
One last swinging descent before hard stop
When I hear a voice without light
The words abrasive
against this cold, lifeless night
brings me back
to where I am now

This place
Somewhere I don't want to be
I go through the motions for promise of better
Daily doubt grows
Meanwhile desire awakens deep within
She's the best thing to happen yet
she hasn't
perhaps never will

A key
Turning in locks unknown
What stands behind the door mysterious
Possibly great love
Possibly my final undoing
Possibly more darkness
Step in
And I fall