My Night and Day

People always tell you
never go to sleep mad,
but has anyone ever told you
to not go to sleep sad.
I can go to sleep mad
and wake up very happy,
but if I go to sleep sad
the tears are never ending.
I go to sleep crying
and I wake up crying too.
I couldn't take it any more.
I couldn't handle you.
so I wake again
with tears still in my eyes.
I am so sick of all this water.
It's puddling my mind.
I walked into the kitchen.
I grabbed one of the knives.
I walked slow and quite
every one was still asleep.
I stood watching you sleep.
You were sleeping very soundly.
No tossing and turning for you.
There were no tears in your eyes.
There was no sadness
like I felt.
So I lift the knife
way up high
and brought it down
with all my force.
Suddenly, you woke up
and you could even breathe.
What was happening?
I'm sure that's what you thought
as you look at your daughter
dying on your floor.
I lay in a pool
of my own blood
the knife deep into my chest.
I looked at my mom
and said don't worry,
I won't cry anymore.
Now my tears will be gone,
they will be gone forevermore.