my ending

as i lay me down to sleep
i remember all the good times and the bad.
i remember the look on your face when you told me to go home before someone noticed i was gone.
we were ever do happy with each other.
you never tried to hurt me whether you did or not.
i will love you forever but at the same time i need to forget.
i need to get over us over you.
you were my everything.
you still haunt my thoughts.
you still hold my heart in your never failing grasp.
i ofter wonder what would of happened if we had never met.
i often wonder why you chose me out of the crowd.
maybe you noticed my weaknesses.
all too noticeable to everyone especially you.
you knew what i was like,
you knew that i would follow you where ever you went.
even into an endless black hole in life.
we were best friends, we were lovers, we were druggies, we were special, we were caught.
yet i still loved and love you still.
you were ripped away without a goodbye.
in a blink of an eye you were gone thrown out of my life.
i wrote a letter you replied.
i read and reread that beautiful letter.
soon to follow came two more beautiful letters that i have kept sacred.
i moved on after not hearing from you again.
i almost banished you from my thoughts.
then you called.
everything came flooding back.
i do love you and i will forever.
maybe you lost that in me but you will always own a part of me.
despite all we have been through.
now i am able to fall into a sound sleep knowing that i have my ending.