It builds inside me
Throbbing, burning.
I can't I can't I can't
"Did you take your pills today?"
He asks with a sneer
And a part of me wants to claw his eyes out.
Are my feelings not valid
if a pill can take them away?
Just take this little pill
and your cares will float away
The emptiness flows in
the nightmares stay at bay
But where do they go?
and does a piece of me go too?
frustration pounds inside my head
I want to run away
they ask too much,
I'm only me
I can't I can't I can't!
Whenever it's too much for me,
they always ask "Did you take your pill?"
With a sigh, I respond
I will.
I will.
Author notes
This is about dealing with anxiety disorder and depression with my little green pills. I know it's nothing compared to what many people deal with, but it's my experience. "Swimming"
Written September 29th, 2005
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- Honey its +beautiful+ like a m e n t a l illness by AshliiAsphyxiation.
600 points, ended April 26, 2007, 11 entries
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crap.. this is awesome.. exactly how i am feeling with these new meds i am on...
wow..
thanks for entering && good luck hun -
Mmmmm.
This is so awesome, it makes me think!
Mmm. It makes me wonder about some disease like AIDS, if you have to take a ton of pills to slip out of the pain, and your adament about it. Meh. Good write, good read.
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skitza,
Thank you so much for the bronze! It was a very pleasant surprise!
Sarah -
I loved reading this poem. I can completely relate.. only I had some people telling me not to take them too. It is a difficult situation dealing with medication. Not nice at all. You really managed to show your feelings well in this poem. Very good. I loved the ending.
Thanks for entering and following the rules and good luck!
skitza
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that is almost exactly how I feel. I think my pills change me for the better, I just don't like how people act like my feelings aren't real if I forgot to take my pill that day
Sarah -
And a valid experience it is. I know someone with a similar disorder and while she likes that she functions better while on her meds, she hates taking them as she feels it changes the person she is inside. It doesn't matter if the change is for good or ill, it makes her different. Anyway, I can relate to what you've written so, if nothing more, you did a good job...
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talented!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really loved this poem, nice style. Your poem keap me gluded to the computer there, there was a picture in my mind though-out which I liked. this is a amazing poem, and told your feeling completely. I do suffer depression but not that bad, I do hope you get over it and will be able to deal with the future.
Thanks so very much for taking the time to read my work, your comments were lovely.
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Very good poem about such a sad topic.They seem to have a pill for everything these days.
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This is a really sad poem--seems to be the answer to everything these days give her some pills to keep her quiet been there and done that! i understood everything you said here--well done Sarah--good job. shaz xx
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I totally relate to this poem. Great write.
"Whenever it's too much for me,
they always ask "Did you take your pill?"
This is the famous line that everyone uses on me everyday.
How funny! Once again. Great Job Brenda
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Wow, this is really good, I can relate to this in many ways I would always get the "Don't take to many". I really hope things get better for you.
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its the no highs no lows feeling you get the numbness that surrounds your day.. well done a really really brave write i can relate to every single word sadly! i wish you love lighht and strength to get through the next hurdle what ever that m,ay be be xx Cheryl
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i cant say i completely understand how you feel since i dont take meds,but i can understand how that would be hard and very un- nerving for you.
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Gorgeous.
A beautiful poem, and one that's beautiful because real human beings -not perfect ones- can relate. Hurting is human... Your poem is gorgeous. -
I can definitely see this happening. Nice one, very sad, but at least they care about you. Nags! jk
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I think this is a wonderful piece full of heart. It takes a lot of guts to talk and write about things so personal as depression and I commend you for being so brave. Heartfelt and human. Written so well.
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i know how u feel with this one my family is the same way
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Hi, sorry you suffer from depression the illness of the century, It takes many forms and I feel for anyone who suffers, until you have been there I guess people don't understand, good write my friend hope you feel better soon, a very big hug Di
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very well written
Very good poem about how you feel about taking all of the meds that you take. I think I understand a little bit. I take some meds for depression and anxiety. The line "But where do they go, and does a piece of me go too", really makes me think about these pills that I take. Be well.
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I loved this, it shows how people deal with things by just passing it off on meds. It's riduclous, I saw a cover of a magazine that said, "got a problem? We've got a pill" It sicked me, people are allowed to feel, I know that I have ADD, and perhaps anxiety, but I won't let myself be passed of on meds, I hope you get better and i'm gald you don't depend on them.
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very good
I know what you mean..Im on depression pills also. I hate the looks that I get when someone finds out. Like Im crazy or something. Im here for you. I definitely relate to the part of wondering if your feelings are valid with it. Well written, the repeat at the end gives a nice touch. -
Im sorry you go through this. My mom takes a little pill it really helps her anxiety. I hope things get better
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I really liked this. I really don't like it when people ask if you've taken your medicine. It bothers me because it's like they're making fun of people who take them. I don't like pills.
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I love this poem, I take meds to for depression so this all to filmilar to me, so this poem is really cool to me, because I relate to it, nice work
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oh my..i'm sorry that u go through this. i guess one would wonder how valid their feelings r if they're being numbed out all the time. it must be tough. u've expressed it quite openly and honestly here.
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