Empty
That’s how I feel
Losing you still seems surreal
Lost
Not knowing what to do
Everything reminds me of you
Hurt
Nothing can explain
How losing you has caused so much pain
Anger
Unbelievable anger I have deep inside
Running away but still I can’t hide
Fear
Will I be able to make it through?
Another day without you?
Lonely
Missing you each day
Hoping and praying that Ill find a way
Hope
That someday Ill see
There still is a life left here for me
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Written September 28th, 2005
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Empty... A feeling that no matter what you do, you dont feel whole. A piece, of you has been ripped from you life and you dont know why.... Empty is a feeling you will feel for a long time. No one can ever take the place of your daughter. She is forever engraved onto your heart, mind and soul. She is a piece of you and when she left, a piece of you died with her. But, if you feel that emptiness with love.... with memories of her... it will feel a little less empty and a little more like there is hope. Nicole may be gone from this earth, but she is never gone from your HEART.
Lost... the way it feels when you pass her favorite store, see her favorite food.... walk into her room..... Embrace her memory. Find her in those familiar things. Feel her presence when you walk into her room, remember her smile when you walk past her favorite store. Remember her laughter when you watch her favorite movie. Remember that she isnt lost and she wouldnt want you to be either.
Hurt..... is the one feeling that will always be with you. The quickening of your breathing, the heaviness on your heart, when you think about her or something that you used to do together. But the hurt will fade, just remember she didnt do this to hurt you, she did this to free her pain. Forgive her.. and the pain will lesson.
Anger.... for leaving you, for not thinking about the pain she would create or the hole that she'd leave in your life.... forgivness. Forgiving her for hiding her pain, forgiving her for leaving you. That is the only way you will ever be able to start walking in a new direction.
Fear... of course you will make it through. I know that it seems hard, like nothing could ever hurt so deeply, but each day is a new beginning, a new chance to invite happiness into your life.
Lonely.... I wont even touch this one....
Hope... hope goes with faith. Allowing yourself to believe that there is life beyond pain. You cant let pain for one child, interfere with your love and obligation to your other child. Life moves forward, take her memory with you in your heart.
.... No mother should ever have to feel any of these things about/ because of her children. I grieve with you everyday for the loss of your daughter.... and the loss of mine....
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I am sorry for your lose, I truly can feel your pain..Emotional write..but rest asure she is in the arms of God
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Suzee I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you are going through. I pray things will get better. Always keep her close, her spirit lives on in you. She will always be close. I will keep you in my prayers. God bless, ~Angel~
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Wonderfully Contributed.
I am so truly sorry for your loss. I lost my sister when I was 8 years old. My older sister was 25 when she died... and I felt... lost and confused when she passed. This poem explains a lot to me... and I feel the same way. I'm not sure what it feels like to lose a child... well, I had a miscarrage, so, I guess in a way, I kind of know what you are dealing with. I know it is hard to lose a family member, but a daughter, I wouldn't truly know. I hope you are dealing with her loss in a good way and that God has treated you with ease. God bless you and keep writing.This was a beautiful poem and a wonderous tribute to your daughter... I hope that she is watching you from up above.
~Ashleigh
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Remember...
suzeecue...mourn your loss, and comfort those that remain that mourn with you. Take comfort in that in a time yet unseen- you will be re-united. Celebrate her life...and all of those that remain with you and within your circle. If I know one thing at all and nothing else- someday... Peace...
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Suzee,I wish you peace within, deep sympathies,I do know the pain you're in,given time only eases the surface pain,your heart will always ache of loosing your daughter and part of you
as God will walk with you,knowing your in pain,holding your hand and praying with you when you don't think you can make it through another day with out her in it,Ifelt that way til I found my newest friend,I will always treasure it as he was the only spirit I had,see my spirit was gone for a long time, til I let my savior in. Bless and keep your strength as you will need it..Linda
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i'm sorry to hear about ur loss. i'm sure u'll always keep her in ur heart and the memories of her will eventually soothe rather than torture...keep well and find stregnth from God and those around u
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Keep The Faith
When I read that a fellow poet lost a child, my heart became filled with grief. I too have a child, a girl, my only child and I love her and try to protect her as best I could and I know that you've done all that a mother could do and even more. Right now, your load is heavy and your heart is grieved and you're feeling the worst loss of your entire life but believe in your heart and soul that Nicole is at peace with the lord. She will always remain a part of you, in your heart, your soul and your mind. Please accept my condolences though we've never met. I too will keep both you and Nicole in my prays. Avril
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Sue I'm so sorry for your loss. I just found out what this poem is all about by reading the last few comments made by some of your friends on this site. I had no idea. I thought this poem was about your dad. Once again I'm so sorry and please let me know if there is anything I can do. Take care my friend, Lou
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Sad, brilliant, beautiful, heart breaking...
Great poem for an even greater person. Writing is like a medicine for me, help ease the pain of memory. Attempts to ease your soul would be foolish over the internet, coming from someone you do not even know. But I hope for the best for you. Everything will turn out alright in the end, they have for years and will for years to come. -
There is no words that I will attempt to say to try to lessen your pain, because there are none. Although deep in my soul I wish I held the magic to make things right for you. Just know my thoughts are with you as a fellow mother and poet. Jacki
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My heart grieves with you for your daughter. I don't know you, but I know you must be full of anguish. My sister's 10 year old daughter died in 2002 on Halloween. If it wasn't for God giving her peace I don't know how she would have made it...I know the pain of losing a niece...and the pain my sister felt I cannot even imagine, nor will I pretend to imagine yours. I do know that God gave me comfort and love. My daddy had died just less then a year before her...and after that, in 2003 the same sister had a still born...this year in April she had twin boys. She never let the devil steal her Joy in the Lord, and she tells me she lives a different life now...the deep aching pain is gone...it no longer hurts to breath..but Cayla will forever leave an empty place in her heart and soul. I wish there was something I could say to comfort you...but all I can do it pray that the Lord gives you His peace...I pray that for you, right now, in the name of Jesus. I am so sorry for your loss.
Sam
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Beautiful write so sad such strong feelings .I send you love .
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This poem is truly beautiful and believe me I know the pain of losing someone so dear to you, I will pray for you and I will be here if you need someone to lean on, I love you my new friend and I am always here!!
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I think this is a great poem. Such emotion that no one should have to bare, yet many do. Great Job!!!
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This one sounds too sad for me - losing is never good, whether it's a game or more importantly, someone close. But, hanging on sometimes stops the loss - hope so anyway.
Paul -
Whoever said that time heals all wounds? Well he was a twit! The best hope is that time will take the raw edge off the pain, and that friendships and fresh purpose can fill the void. But to erase the pain would lessen the significance of the loss. Be strong & reach for friends when it feels too hard to carry on.
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There are no words to help you. No magic to fill the air. I can't bring relief by typing, nor can I mend a broken heart. But, I can provide some sorrow from that broken past of mine, to ease the pain your feeling now, and know this will end in time. Our hearts break from the loss of someone we so dearly love, but the light shines in the future, and you must keep your mind separate from your heart. Thoughts remind us of deep emotions in our life. Try to occupy yourself as much as possible and let time, which does not heal, begin the process of forgetting. Keep a smile on your pretty face and the world will bask in its beauty!
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I love the stages you have written for they are with out
doubts the truth and you will find the way .. one step at a time
Empty, Lost, Hurt, Anger, Fear, Lonely,
and the best part Hope
warm thoughts
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SO BEAUTIFUL THOUGH HEARTBREAKING
Dear friend; we must hold onto hope and keep the faith in our hearts. This is a truly heartbreaking and touching poem -
i liked the structure to this poem how in the first line fo each stanza you introduced a feeling, then looked at how you were feeling that feeling toward someone. well done and i cna understand your feelings about losing someone you regard so high, hope you find someone better who respects you. lv kez x
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So very sad
AH, and this too shall pass. It his so hard losing someone who has held your love so deep.
A moving and truly sad work.
~Pam
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