A Short About Your Life

I haven't felt this way in at least a hundred years
And I am just so old now
I don't know how you can handle me
The spark in my heart is so unfamiliar these days
The words from your mouth seemed more like fear
And following suit, I walked away

I'm a horrible monster who just can't face you
Because I love you so much
I don't want to see you go
So I tell you everything you don't want to hear
And I push and push and push
Then you finally get the message
And right now I feel so bad

I wish you could see everything from my point of view
That way when everything is a mess, like right now,
It can still be okay.
There are always enough little things to concentrate on
That I don't have to deal with the big picture
Today is the day I admit I have a problem

In my composure, everything has fallen apart
You say "OK" like you can disregard all that happened
But I know that you'll never forgive or forget me
I just hope I'll hear about what happens to you
Even if it's not from your mouth, I want to know
I want to know how you've fared in your personal hell hole