I keep thinking that if I said your name enough you'd materialize in front of me. Then this subconscious pining might stop. But the poems don't mean anything more than poems that the muse came up with, spilling your name out in internal acrostics. I'm starting to think that my whole memories are panning all around me like a scratchy film reel--and I realize that, hey, that's my whole life being lived in my peripheral vision.
Will I remember myself remembering you, when the time comes that I no longer remember just because I'm living a life full enough for me to reserve memories for scrapbooks that are never finished, photo negatives that remain hanging in the dark?
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Written September 19th, 2005
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tameme, tunganga
ganito lang talaga ako siguro
sabi mo nga it's in the peripheral vision
Anna Lee -
Pambitin.
-It stands with such stature on it's on. Like a pair of good boots, steel toed, four-inch heels, the kind that adds two inches to the bust line. -
It's a part of a very long story. You know the story. But I think it should stand as it is. Pambitin.
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oh, wow.
And have i been away that long? this is brilliant and i know brilliant. very nice transition, too.
is this part of the prose poem? i think it is...
it's a balloon of emotions - a bouquet of exploding flowers, again and again.
Like the patches of moonlight on the walls.
"Will I remember myself remembering you" - Ouch. -
wow, thanks so much for considering.
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Another fine work. Adding you to my favs. -Al
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"everything is in everything"- that reminds me of Eliot. YEs, I think I was just a bit in too much of a haste trying to forget, and fearing that in that effort I might have too much to remember, too much that I don't even want. Thanks for jolting me back to reality, and for reading my poems.
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Yes you'll remember - not all at once but in bits in pieces because everything is in everything .. somehow. There are times when your life will be full of things - and nothing but the present at hand seem to be. But they are there...in a touch, a look, a feeling - a lens of perception.
Take it from someone old.
Ever read ImageofaGirl? You might like her.
Lisa
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We are mortals and us mortals do not like time..
but timie is always the key to everything
one day you will live that life full. and your thoughts
will only become memories
well done expressing your feelings like the relation to negatives
and film reals...
Blessings
Tears -
Really interesting take on things. I loved the tone of this piece - one I think you did very well with. Short and to the point and powerful. Lovely...
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yes, I know Lenin would disapprove of this, but I couldn't help it. And yes, what I was really getting over was all the potential I had visualized. I wasn't really hurt; I was disappointed.
Thanks again for a thought-provoking comment.
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How is it that sometimes the person we love is the person that hurts us the most? IS that really part of love or are we all living in disillusion? I believe that love is an eternal sacrifice to another human being and that hurt is just part of that...
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Lenin would disapprove, but I liked it
apart from the rules which I did not read, I found this fascinating as I have not had the chance to snoop in anyones diary - getting over nothing is really getting over all the potential you might have visualized - unfortunately, not every human is able to visualize potential - rather than worry over what is meant to be (which I am sure you do not, being a good leftist) my bet is you will obtain much more than you even percieved possible - then you will get over the nothing - perhaps a memory in a scrap book - I like your writing - you have no fear to tackle various types of writing styles - -
An interesting take on things... Well penned. Powerful piece nontheless, & even if I had more than this "nothing", it still got to me. Bravo & best of luck.
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thanks anyway. I'm getting on just fine.
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very good
Nothing happenning can be more painful than real event no matter how unpleasant. At least you can get over something real. Oh well, I don't know what to say really. Allow memories to fade off, that will bring relief, I think. -
I don't know whether to be happy about that, but thanks for the comment anyway. I'm getting right to getting over, whatever it means.
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I know what you mean...it's difficult to get over something that has never happened because deep down in the heart we would wish for it to happen.I wont be able to tell you how to get over nothing but all I can say is that what is meant to happen will happen one day.It may be today,tomorrow,after a month ,a year or even 10 years.
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This is so relatable it holds so much pain, longing, hopes and none existant benefits. Often in a relationship like these the pains is evident and what is the dreams hoped for never become relevant in reality. Your expressions and emotions are well read in this one.
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