No one actually knows..

No one actually knows what has been running through my mind.
Tripping and falling over the little details.
I have no voice,
Even i did i wouldn't waste my breath to try to tell an unwritten story.

The untold tail of a lonely soul,
caught between two.
Both offering to give everything,
Both offers irresistible.

The eyes that peer over the walls that stand ten feet tall.
Don't see what they think they do.
My intentions aren't cruel.
My truths aren't lies.
All i will say is what i have to.

My conscious has been hard on me lately,
Just like most of the mouths I've heard speak.
But please understand this,
I'm not dragging them down with me.
They choose to stay with me through it all.

Why don't you all understand,
Why don't you try to help wipe away these tears again.

when i was young, and fragile...
You promised to stay by me,
no matter what mistakes i made, mommy.
...What happened to that promise.
Can't you hear my cries for help.
STOP PUSHING ME AWAY.

Envy of the relationship that we used to have,
builds deep in the bottom of my pulse ridden heart.
And the despair is taken out myself.
The only real release from the pains;
Causing a different type of strain.

No one can say they know me,
Because i don't even know who i really am.
The conclusion I've come to..
I am what everyone has try-ed to make me.
Peaces of imperfections.

Sometimes i say that i don't know whats happening.
And most of the time its a fatal lie,
But at this very moment...
Its the honest truth.

My world is spinning,
Like a horrible high.
But I've done nothing with my addictions for over three weeks..
And that alone should be enough to bring a smile to my face.

Why can't i bring myself to say what went wrong.
Maybe there way nothing wrong.
Maybe it was almost perfect.
And i just didn't want that with him

But now i have her,
To Oogle over.
Shes such a beauty in my eyes.
This desire isn't has bad as it used to be,
lust is nothing compared to the love i hold.
I just want to hold her,
and make it all fade away.
Take the pain and memories away.
I know I'm not exactly what everyone's dream girl is like,
But i will always try my best.
And its good enough for her.

Even when she spoke the teary words in my arms,
i couldn't help but smile because she was trusting me with the pain,
Its Not quite pathetic,
I'm just compelled to hold tightly.
and never let go.

Even just One passion filled kiss,
would be enough to kill the paranoia for awhile.
To peel away a couple of layers I'll grown to protect myself.

And i know this story book has no ending,
But please don't turn away and leave me cold.

For now my gorgeous goddess
Stay with me with the best hopes..
And never bid a sad far well.