One year ago today,
I brought you here…
But I did not want to…
And I had to leave you here…
One year ago,
and 4 days,
from this moment,
we were so happy together…
We had plans for the next day,
to do something
neither of us
had ever done…
The rest of the day
went pretty much
as planned…
Our friends came into town,
we went to a party…
That night,
at first,
nothing out of the ordinary,
but some sickness,
you had…
Then later that night,
something terrible happened…
Something horrible…
A sickness that neither
of us expected,
took you away from me…
You died in my arms that night…
They were able
to restart your heart,
a little while later…
But you never regained consciousness…
And four days later,
one year ago,
today,
at this moment,
you died in my arms,
a second time…
Yet this time,
you would not come back…
My life has taken
many turns since then,
many ups and downs…
For a while
I did not think
I would survive…
Then an old friend,
one you had never met,
walked into my life.
We talked on the phone,
a tremendous amount,
caring started,
then love…
There have been many more
ups and downs since that time…
She heard so much
in those days,
I honestly don’t know
how she listened…
but she did...
Then when the love
began to grow,
I realized something
I did not know…
You had held onto my heart,
and I had held onto your love…
She also realized it,
before I did…
I guess I knew, somehow
that one day,
I would have to release
my love for you…
For it is unfair to her,
for me to be
in love with you,
and to try
and be in love with her…
So just a short time ago,
I wrestled with the idea,
of letting go,
for once and for all…
I fought that for so long…
For I had used your love,
as a crutch
when times were bad
for me…
Instead of placing
my heart out there,
for it to be hurt again,
you protected it from harm…
And now today,
at this place I left you,
one year ago, today…
I ask you to release
my heart from your grip,
as I release yours from mine…
I must be alone for a while;
so I can find someone special…
That someone, is me…
I’ll give my heart away again soon…
This time it will be to someone,
just as special,
just as loving;
just as caring,
as you…
I don’t know
what all my tomorrows
will bring,
for none of us do…
But one day,
I do firmly believe,
I will find
that special kind of love,
you and I had…
I do also believe now,
I know who that love will be with…
She is here,
beside me,
with me…
Can you see her?
You did what you did,
one year ago today…
To sacrifice yourself,
for me…
And now it appears,
for her…
Little did I know,
she would be the one,
who would benefit
from our love,
and what I learned from it…
She will realize one day,
that love,
in it’s many forms,
should always be pure,
given freely,
without hope of return…
I release you,
my lady love,
here and now…
Please release me...
for I must move on,
as you would have it…
Before I leave this place,
there is something
I must also say,
to you:
I thank you for your sacrifice,
for me.
For you knew what
would happen to me,
if you did not…
You did
what you did,
for me,
out of your love,
your total,
never dying love,
for me…
So that I may live...
So that I may grow;
So that I
may find love again,
find happiness again...
Unfortunately that love and happiness
will not be with you…
But that happiness and love
will be because of you,
and what we had…
As we leave this place today,
my heart is heavy,
with the grief,
I still feel at the thought
of your loss…
But I will get past it,
one day
and move on
with my life…
She and I will hopefully find
that special kind of love,
you and I shared…
The happiness,
that comes with contentment,
for one person
cannot make
another person happy…
All they can do
is provide the environment,
for the other person
to be truly happy…
Please continue
to keep watch
over us…
For we will need
all the help we can get…
If you can provide it,
that is…
It will help us to know,
that you are there…
To hopefully make sure,
that we do it right…
© Jonathan Wikkins November 13, 2001
Revised February 21, 2008
All Rights Reserved
Author notes
Written November 13th, 2001
In a list
A contest entry
- I need you to make me cry and send tears from my eyes!!! Click for details! by Tetsuka.
300 points, ended September 28, 2004, 14 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - My first contest by dust -in-the-wind.
500 points, ended February 11, 2008, 19 entries
Bronze trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
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wow this was something else and i really like it you did a great job on it and its seems like you wrote it from your heart and i love poems like that good luck in the contest
brookeann
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One year ago today,
I brought you here.
But I did not want to…
And I had to leave you here.
One year ago, and 4 days, from this moment,
we were so happy together.
You died in my arms that night…
They were able to restart your heart,
a little while later…
And four days later, one year ago, today,
at this moment, you died in my arms,
a second time…
This time, you would not come back.
She heard so much in those days,
I honestly don’t know how she listened… but she did…
Then …..
I realized something I did not know…
You had held onto my heart, and I had held onto your love…
So just a short time ago, I wrestled with the idea,
of letting go, for once and for all…
You did what you did, one year ago today…
, for me…
And now it appears, for her…
Before I leave this place, there is something I must say,to you:
…. happiness will be because of you,
and what we had…
As we leave this place, today,
my heart is heavy, with the grief,
It will help us to know, that you are there…
To make sure, that we do it right…
You made me cry with these lines
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beatiful in all ways
well very thought provoking poem it makes me relise pain is in the eyes of the one who grasps it for life. i only know this because i live off pain my burn for it day in and out only beacause i was raised in pain and heartache i would say that peace come from the heart and that if you look to yours you can find peace too but it looks like you really are trying to put the peace in your heat and let a flame of love die but never let the love die just grasp it and use it to help you love again and maybe one day you can find trueand pure love maybe she can make you happy. -
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eh sorry but this is REALLY long to my standards but i will include your other one in my judgings, sorry. good luck to you still! -
wow this really grips at my heartstrings, strumming along without end...goes on and on never ceasing at the simple thought that love lingers on wherever and whenever you stop to feel it, realize it, and receive it...truly a powerful write indeed worthy of amazing praise!
Mozaic -
that's so beautiful. i was crying so hard when i read that. great job.
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Great penning
I loved your poem ... it honestly made me want to cry and i started to by the end of it. This poem pinned the place in the heart where the deepest fear of love grows and yet where it is the strongest. If this poem has not won a trophy ... IT SHOULD HAVE ... and i hope people realize that. Great penning and i hope it does well with every contest it enters ... and if not i believe that it has won a trophy in many hearts that have read this piece. -
So sad to go back over this again Mike, but then I guess you never want to forget either, just as I don't also. Good luck with this contest friend, jean
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I am stunned at the love felt throughout the entire poem and the emotion in it. Great peice of work. As I read the title I thought of something different and then when I began to read I just found the tears in my eyes. dont forget the phrase. Wonderful work my friend.
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Oh dear....I remember this story. It's one of those I don't want to "read" again...One of those where I hope the ending is going to be different......Like watching the movie of the Titanic, and hoping that THIS time, things just might work out...and all the while knowing that things will not ever be the same again....
*Whew*.......this is one of your better works....it is hard to read because I know the story behind it.
Good luck on this contest.
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ok im just about in tears here ..i only aint cuz im in school so ya..ne who this was truly touching. i mean the bond that you to shared..the sacrifice.. it was so special. love is quite a mystery aint it ...it always seems to find a way to surprise you or it turns out like u never expected..but one must not forget those who have helped us along the way ...and i think thats what uve done here...remembered that special one in your own way time does go on but sum things always stay
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I am in awe of the love, respect and utter adoration you hold for your lady and she for you....The communication still between the two of you and the forward movement that is going on in your life at her consent. Truly beautiful to see that continuum of love for you....
So lavishly and perfectly expressed...a tribute to your love for her and the rest of your life! -
Heartbreaking
This is the first time in my entire life that poetry written by someone who is not dead (and not me) has made a tear run down my cheek.
*Bows his head and closes his eyes*
I thank you sir for sharing this work with the AP community. -
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I would say something to the effect of I am sorry for the tragedy in your life but to do so somehow cheapens the pain and how if makes us who we are I am happy to see that you have not given up on life love and writing. I cannot and will not presume to know why things happen the way they do but to see something positive grow from such pain is at least to me a proof that there is a reason I wish you continued happiness -
don't touch it!
Beautiful heart touching write. I felt your pain, your loss, and your love. Death can reach into our souls and seem to take the very breath we breathe. I have felt it and know what it can do. But God has given us the strength to pick up and go on. He has given us the courage that we sometimes forget we have in situations like this. And most of all he has given us the gift of life not only here but in the here after. And that is what we have to cling to in times like these that you speak of. I'm glad that you have found the inner strength to go on and I know in my heart that you are smiled down upon from her thrown in heaven. I too send you smiles your way :o) >>>>>>>>Sandy/San-d
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Wow! This is great!Makes me want to cry!
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beautiful...
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I'm sure a lot of people have experienced this also. Good work
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*sniff*sniff* thank you for sharing whonrock. I wish you all the best in your new beginning and i'm sure your lady love is happy for you that you're moving on :))
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very heartfelt
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and it is my promise to you, the literary community, to continue to write, no matter the subject, as i have written in this poem, i don't yet know what the future holds for me, but, if this is any indication of what is about to happen...
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WoW such a sad and touching write
you wrote this very very well
you painted a clear picture with just words
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Real sad, depressing, yet, life's got to go on. That is the spirit.
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So sad...touching...heartfelt...I don't even know what to say...
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like most it made me cry this is truly the most beautiful poem i have ever read.
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theres a lot here but its really good and meaningful
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to think... the reviews on this poem, have surpassed what i thought was my best, 'The Most Horrible Morning' I am truly humbled...
Mike -
Time is such a relative thing...one year or perhaps 4 years -- all an eternity sometimes. Yes, we heal, but at any given moment, something can suddenly spark a memory and in only a flash of a second, time has never passed at all. Tears wash away the sadness and we go on. m
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I cant find words to describe the emotions I am feeling. I havent cried this hard in a long long time. I actually feel my heart aching and breaking for you, and actual physical pain in my chest. My chest feels like it got hit by a ten ton truck....
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*Sob* Beautiful. !
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Thank you for sharing this beautiful and wonderful poem for us. When the bad things happen, we are so absorbed in what horror we have witnessed that it is inconceivable to think otherwise. You deserve 10 stars **********
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This is absolutly beautiful. Life must go on. I'm sure that she understands and is smiling down upon you and your new life...Your love relationship, I can tell was strong and secure...And because of that she would want you to get past the grieving and start a new life of Happiness!!! This is just a wonderful piece......Smiles your way :o)>>>>>> Whonrock......Sandy/San-d
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Not a lot I can say. Wow. A lot of feeling there. Good work.
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Hey very vivid in detail so sad but one of the best i've read in a while..Loved it..Michael
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Beautifully written and put together piece. So much love expressed here from within. There is no harm keeping her in your heart always. She wants you happy and to see you move on with your life. Your happiness is hers too :)
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awesome write........keep up the good work.
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I too, felt the deep emotion that you conveyed here.... Beautifully said, beautifully written..
Sammy -
I have felt every single one of these emotions you have written here, you deserve every love and happiness possible. I hope you can find them... She'd be smiling now... you're doing what she wants.... I'm sure.... moving on... Well Done Whonrock..
Karen -
Well keep writing.. you are so good. You have a way of touching readers
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it's been an absolutely incredible month (yes, month) since i've been a member here... i guess i knew something when i read my first poem 'you and i' in public just 2 days after it's very birth... when i did, everyone in the place stopped and listened, including the bartender... there have been more times i've read there, when people come up to me, people i don't know, and express the same emotions you express to me... i am in total awe... i never even dreamed that i could write something people would actually want to read... and if you had told me 5 months ago, that i would write poetry, i'd have called you absolutely nuts!
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just like Kym said there are no words just tears. I need to go now and have a good cry
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I have to say whon (I've already commented I know) but.. I see your pain here.. plain and in black and white.. you get a big hug.. I really hope writing this helps you out. If you ever need to talk...
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Just Divine, what an emotional poem. I am sitting at my desk at work, tears streaming down my cheeks. I wish you the best of luck with your new beginning. -
What a joyous poem, sad, it's true, very sad, but so full of love and hope, so respectful of your love for each other. this made me weep, not just at the sadness but for the joy of a new love found and the finally being able to 'let go' while still holding on to life.
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Damn... a made me cry..
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Ah... Im a girl.. I can tear up a bit eh?
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you made my cry again what a wonderful poem ,bravo ! to you
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There are no words...just tears.
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*Tears* I'm speechless.. you said so much here.. such love.
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