Faithfulness

They say true love waits and its all up to fates
What is love called true, all us people wish we knew
For years I've held my peace, and now I want release
I watched him rise and watched him fall in lies
Now I look an as he stands up straight
but I wonder if its to late
For he is leaving while I'm disbelieving, my mind is careening
I know I will watch him go
I wish to keep him near, but in fear I shed a tear
Will he survive, will he come home alive
Dear God don't let my dream become real
Here in prayer I kneel
Don't let this be the devils deal
Questions rip apart my fumbling mind
Is he blind? But he's always been kind
What do I await what will I find
Teach me Savior who to be, what to see
I'm holding on to a hope just trying to cope
Who do I trust, I am just dust.
When those around go against what I believe
From You I think this I perceive
But there are times I want to leave
Pressure threatens to break me
My eyes wander hoping to clearly see
Confusion mounts in my mind
All seems dull that once shined
Dear God You said to seek,
and you'd give grace to the humble and meek
So here I am searching for you face
looking for the reason to finish this race
Here I kneel bringing my case
Give me what is real, something to feel
I admit like Thomas I doubt
So often in anguish I shout
But I'm fighting now that's my vow
I cannot go on without a answer
its eating me like a cancer
If theres sin show me, help me to see
Theres so much pain , its driving me insane
But you have given me your grace
I pray you come in haste
You have been so good to me
Even now I'm starting to see
Thank you Jesus for Your faithfulness
even in my faithlessness