Ame'lie

It had been weeks now,
Since he had become
The silent sentinel
That watched the darkened street corner

Alone and unguarded he stalked the street,
His feelings so blatant and obvious that
Even the garbage in the gutter.....
saw through him

        *"Marry? Hey it's Tom, look, I really need a fix, can you hook me up? Your place in an hour? OkI'll bring her..........*

At first it had been pleasant enough,
Watching the street corner
Day in and all night,
His warm glow effecting all that passed........

                but then the depression set in..

At first it was like a small cool-green reptile,
It's fleeting and flickering tongue
Would only lash out at his nebulous thoughts,
for a passing moment

                           *"Hey Suzy, we're kinda lost, and we were wondering if you could come pick us up?.....No I don't think the bus runs out here...........*

Soon his depression had risen to gigantic proportions

"All this time spent alone has made me violently ill....."
He thought to himself.
Soon his very light,
Seemed to flicker to the whims of his inner demons.

He always herd them clearly,
They were never faint and distant....
Like his mind.....
Seemed.........to.................be..

   *"I always loved you.....You know i didn't, you were there, I never loved him and you know that...........*

Sometimes they would scream at him,
yelling hoarsely brandishing their proverbial fists,
      Mad at me?

His mind was riddled with
Chaos and connfusion,
Every decision product of hours of
                            Second guessing.

                 *"They are all around me Sidukar, the very scum of the earth. Never thought they'd be so stupid....What? Oh, yeah, I got the package, it's guna be hot for them tonight...........*

He ransacked and pillaged the halls and passages of
                                His mind
He desperately and vehemently searched for what everyone needs.....
            a way out

Once, in a bout of bitter rage,
He had the words,
"We are not alone"
Tattooed on his soft exterior.

                                   *"Is Kacey there? No? Well tell im' to get the job done! NO! I don't care ow' he does it, just tell him to get it fucking done!......................*

His skin started to peel and jump off,
His mind wavered wherever,
The drunk carcinogenic driver might be taking him.

He days were numbered he knew it,
His feeble mind was past the breaking point,
He thoughts were like fruit,
slowly rusting on the vine.

                                                                 *"Hi, I'd like to buy some meat......A pound of roast, ham, and Swiss Chard please. Ready by five? Yes thank you..........*

Maybe, he thought,
I can plead insanity,
And I will be institutionalized
Hehehehehehe.....institutionalized

The darkened street corner was now,
A playground for his emotions,
Which gradually augmented into his

Nightmares

          *"What do you mean they won't settle? Well i want the bastards in my office by the time i get back. What? Oh hell, I don't give a damn if they want to or not, just make it happen god damn it!....damn.*

In the end,
A leap out into traffic was what did it;
The voices in his head disappeared
In a violent symphony of metal crumpling like tissue paper,
And a recital where deadly tears of glass showered from the sky.

His mind was finally silent.
After those years of standing on that lonely street corner,
He was finally free of his (metal) mental entrapments,
Oh!, how he loved it.

*"Thing's totally wrecked, some bitch completely wasted hit it..... No way, definitely guna need a replacement.....Yeah, I'll get started on the wiring in the meantime......*

This last voice came from outside his head,
he was sure of it.
His body lay broken among the rubble
                      they carted him off



              And somewhere in the West Banks of New Jersey, lay a shattered phone booth among the scrap heap, the letters *W....re...N.....lone* were barely discernible inscribed on the metal inside..........
   But that is totally irrelevant and of no substantial value of course..............