i'm so scared

Would you go there baby with me?
Yes!
But do I really want to
Am I being pushed into something I can’t wait for?
But that he would wait forever for
Did he really mean it when he said it?
I hope I did
I want to jump
I want to let go
But I can’t just yet
Without knowing for sure

He says he loves me
And I know it’s true
Yet he won’t give up
If he really loved me
Would he push me so... much?

I know it’s me
I pushed him there
It’s always me
When he pulls it out
I want it bad
More than he does
It’s not my fault
At least I hope not!

Next time
It will be me
It won’t be him
It never was
And I won’t say no
That’s what I’m scared of

I’m scared for him
I’m scared for me
I’m scared for anything that could and will be
I’m just so scared when we talk it through
Every day we get closer to letting loose

I don’t know what to do when
He says “would you go there baby with me”
And. I say “yes”