i had this coming

you're nothing but a suck up
desperate for anything that pleases you
looking for something to cancel out what you know is coming
something to push you to the advantage point
and you run over any passerby who comes in your way
you don't care, just keep going
find your destination
find what you only think you want
find what you think you need
in people who are willing to do anything for you
and you're just a user
who doesn't know what she wants
you never knew what you wanted, but you knew it was something
so you tried everything on for size, then threw it away
you're useless, just like you never wanted to be
you're harmful, like you never thought you were
you're nothing, just like they always said you would be
pitting friends against friends
fighting yourself on your own decisions
is this what you really want in life?
this is what you're really looking for, pain?
and a reaction
attention from the masses
you say you never wanted it, but it's obviously a lie
just like you said you loved it
just like you said you liked him
just like you said you were over it
nothing is ever your own fault
there's always someone else to blame
a mistake someone else has made
give up
you're nothing but bland
you've never been anything special
and chances are you never will be