Almost four months have gone bye
Since my mentor dimmed his own light.
I've been left all alone to try
To spread wings and take flight.
And Still I wonder
what if you did not die.
I'm not ready for this! I cried.
I was not properly prepared.
He should have never died.
I am now alone and scared.
And Still I wonder
what if you did not die.
When Moses departed the earth
Joshua had the courage to lead the battle cry.
Elisha was empowered twice the Worth
When Elijah was taken into the sky.
And Still I wonder
what if you did not die.
The children will arrive in September.
More teachers have traveled away.
A new doctor will heal them through November.
A new guide will show them the Way.
And Still I wonder
what if you did not die.
It's time for me to renew
My faithfulness to this cause.
A new carpenter must measure how I grew.
A new surgeon needs to expose my flaws.
And Still I wonder
what if you did not die.
I cannot run; I cannot flee
Now that my beloved mentor is gone.
Empowered by the gifts he left me
It's time for me to carry on.
And Still I wonder
what if you did not die.
Author notes
My mentor and friend ended his life in May. We ministered together to children from divorce and marital break down. Other volunteers have left since. The new session begins in September. I'm left to fill some very big shoes.
Written August 24th, 2005
In a list
A contest entry
- "What if..." (Now Closed) by Vickie J.
325 points, ended August 26, 2005, 15 entries
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I feel for your loss-I just wonder who counsels the counselors? We all need someone to release the emotional baggage we pick up everyday, especially in the field that you are in. I know my son who is a fireman, has a chaplain type person that the men can talk to when they have faced a tragedy, just to get some help in handling the things they encounter.
We are only human and frail at best. Wonderful entry, thank you and I pray that God will guide your every footstep and give you wisdom concerning every decision you need to make. -
What if...you had never been born? It is always hard for those left behind to carry on..especially when we lose someone very important to us. I like the way you ended your poem..
I cannot run; I cannot flee
Now that my beloved mentor is gone.
Empowered by the gifts he left me
It's time for me to carry on.
Very positive note to end on...carry on!
Best wishes,
Maureen
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you did a tremendous job writing this poem. My best friend was killed three years ago, and she was my role model. I know it's not the same, but I often sit and wonder what have happened if she was still there for those horrible three years.
Best of wishes, SUPER BIG HUG! -
From mentor to tormentor at his passing, why did he take his own life, which was a gift from God, and did God take him back, or is he an indian giver to those who spurn his gift, far short of his reclaiming it, to add to his collection of glorified souls above, or sinful souls below. I understand and sympathize, I have had several friends and peopke I knew of as well that stepped out under their own power and left me to wonder where they ended up...or are they still here serving out the time they were due to live, in spirit form watching all that they are missing by checking out too soon......hmmmmmmmm~~~~~~Artis
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excellent~
Oh this one is sad
And it hits home with me
Making me think What if my mom had not died?
But we must carry on....I don't think they would would want us to mourn them forever...and remember we can always have memories that we cherish from the heart and hold dear..
Hugs n love
Susan~~~
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You are strong and will make it through,though you lost a part of you.He is relying on you to carry on the great work you always did.God Bless you in all your endeavours.Biblical references added a good extra punch and the realism of this poem is quite extraordinary.Want to applause but the darn things have run out!
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A brilliant piece deeply touching and very well written i like the repetition in this one (I love repitition though many do not) this piece had a lot of impact on me the story like form and the biblical references really add another interesting layer. a great effort.
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I have always had tremendous faith in your potential. What an incredible use of the refrain! I'm so sorry about your mentor. Hope everything goes fine with you. Keep writing like this. You have a very good style.
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Wow a very deep poem with some good imagery. Writing does help to accept things...doesn't it? Hope you are well, blessed be
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It's amazing how we can cope with real life events by writing about it in our poetry. Your poem clearly demonstrates that you are fully aware of the challenge that lies ahead, that you understand it, and in turn, are therefore ready for it.
Wonderful poem, I'd like to wish you well in the contest. Even more so, I'd like to commend you on your ability to put all of this to such beautiful words, and wish you well in the challenge that lies ahead.
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