you'd think i would be oblivious by now

you can't say you never knew
procrastinating this feeling is a crime built for two
and as i wait by your bedside for your simple words
your basic instructions are never heard
coated in sugared words and sprinkled with lies
you know that i can see you're lying when i look in those eyes
so clear and so vibrant something that i thought i knew
has turned around to another view
of something vile and ugly
not of what we had, not of what we knew
but of something that i thought i would never turn to
a bedside slave
here at every needy turn
is this what i've become, is this how i learn?
the tricks of the trade, how master and manipulate
your every move, or is this how i become some helpless love fool
i can hear your voice in all the girls ears
you think i don't know it,
did you really think i couldn't hear?
over the three words you said to me, in the middle of last week
some simple words that seemed only a leak
from the words you were telling her behind my back
from the thoughts you were thinking while stating the facts
you're heart is hopeless, black at best
just another lie covered pin to wear on your plain colored vest
and i knew you never meant it and i knew, you had a reason never to say it
i tried to remain an optimist, never wanting more than to hear it
never needing more than to hope it was there
but i snapped back to reality
and i knew this was only a cavity
to hold my hopeful thoughts
and to accept my mindless dreams
cause i knew if i actually told you you would never believe
in me or my ideas
cause i'm worth nothing to you
just another piece of the pie
just another object to you.