Why Can't It Just Work

The love for him
I hold it dear,
But really he does not deserve it.

Those thoughts and wishes he said to convincingly
Seem to be nothing more than just lines.
Only this time they are lines he made up on his own.

He may not think it but his actions show it
I am needed only when the light does not show
And his ambitions are stowed.

He does not need my breath as I need his.
But he made it out to seem as if he did.
The cruelty in it just wrenches at my soul.

He talked as if he really did miss me,
But now that I am back, he has just slacked
Gone back into the way things were before we were apart.

I know I can do better,
I know I deserve better
But the only time I will be able to leave is when I am fed up
And my love for him is gone.

Until then I can only wait
and hope for a miracle.