The Beginning of the End

The world goes round and round. It never stops spinning. That is how the days and nights come to pass. I think that's ridiculous. How can something keep spinning without someone there to spin it? I don't know about astronauts, but I highly doubt that there is one of them up there that lives in space and continually comes out of his ship to spin the earth. Sure, if you believe in that whole gravity thing then of course you've never questioned it. Mankind has been brainwashed to believe that there is such a thing as gravity. Personally, I believe life is one big movie. There is something, or someone, bigger out there that is pushing play, and stop, and fast-forward. They control what happens like a puppeteer controls his puppets. Of course it's a really long movie but I guess it must be interesting. I think people are fascinating. I would jump at the opportunity to watch this movie. Or maybe, our world as we know it is the size of someone's crystal ball and this person decides what happens in life. What if we are a computer game and there is some child out there who clicks a button and this happens or deletes someone and they die? What about a computer virus? Maybe there is some big company who has to play their cards right and slowly eliminate the entire human race and stop it from spreading to other companies, or in our world, planet? You know that saying, "you choose your destiny" or fate or whatever? It's just more brain washing. Really, the guy in front of the computer controls everything. You really don't have much of a say in what happens in you life. It may seem like you have choices, and you do, but they're very limited. It's picked by the bigger people, and they are just waiting to see what happens next. They make it so that you can only choose the options that they decide you can have. They play with us and move us around like chess pieces. Supposedly we are the most powerful country, but if any of my theories are correct, then we are the puniest place possible. We are like ants; just doing our thing knowing that one-day we will be crushed. Or maybe I'm wrong. Maybe everything I have just said is a complete lie. That is a possibility. I mean, life could actually be life. We could actually be the most powerful country and gravity, could in fact exists. God could exist. If that's the case then it is he who controls what happens. Not everything, but things that people have to turn to science to explain. Science is more brainwashing.    What if God lives above us with his own kind and it just so happens that uncontrollable things happen because of him. Take weather for example. When it snows, God's beard is flaking. When it rains, God is crying. When there's lightning and thunder, God is losing at bowling and he is pissed. No science involved. That's probably how it works. It's a very big possibility. It's what I believe and base my entire life around. I don't care that other people tell me I'm insane and completely wrong. It's what I believe. Somewhere, however, very deep, deep, deep down inside of me, I'm sure I know the truth. I know that everything I believe is a lie and gravity and science really do exist. But, I'm okay with that. I'm okay with the fact that everything I believe in is probably not true. It's not like this is going to send me into a world of depression and make life as I know it come crashing down. No, it's not like that. I will remain calm and not panic.  

Oh my god! My entire life was a lie! Everything I've ever believed in was false. This can't be happening. This wasn't how it was supposed to be. I have nothing to live for. How am I supposed to look at myself in the mirror? I hope I go blind. How am I supposed to face my friends? How am I supposed to go on living? I don't want to have a choice in how my life goes. I'm not good at that kind of stuff, I'm a Libra. Libras can never make up their minds. I'll drive myself straight into the ground! Pretty soon, I'll be six feet under. I can already start to feel the dirt piling up around me. The sun is going to come crashing down! The apocalypse is going to take over! The headless horseman is going to escape from its prison and all hell is going to break loose!