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Dear Ayizan (A Lifetime of Letters)

Note: You do not have to read the pictures, they are abstract images of the letters.









This romance, like any, began playfully abstract...


PART I: A NEW RELATIONSHIP
(introduction-abstractia)

PART II: THE PASSION
(a passion awakes)

PART III: THE MEETING
(love found)

PART IV: THE VOYAGE
(love tested)

PART V: THE MARRIAGE
(love enduring)

PART VI: THE END
(love uncertain)

 

 


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Dear Ayizan, I believe my passion is growing... Aug 11, 2005

 





PART I: A NEW RELATIONSHIP





Aug 7, 2005
Dear Ayizan,

Now in the general zigzagged arrangement
of our hectic toils
when by chance a rural person makes a cough-like sound
on the pimple of our existence
it is imperative that we abandon our old customs
and embrace the trumpet-shaped flowers of life.

May I call attention to the charcoal'ed brazier
that cooks the symbols of our authority
before we spend the winter in a sleep-like state.
It is passed from generation to generation
in the form of reflexive conjunctions
linked by the bananas of surprise and inquiry.

Now as not to paint too-gloomy a picture
or create a hickey with such a kiss
on the neck of our minor infections
I will intersperse this discourse
with relevant interjections of humor.

Yours in playful abstraction,
wbiro

 






Aug 8, 2005
Dear Az,

I hope you receive many entries into your abstract contest 
that bend the impressions of a subject
beyond the limits imposed by space and time
and in a fashion favorable to cultivating truth and honesty
in a realm of uncertain ideas and beliefs...

of course one must do it by using mental impulses
that are sufficient for the task 
that did not exist among people of the late 19th century
who were confined to impressing prefabricated stamps
on the stimulating forces of mankind's nerves

 


but nevertheless which are still adequate
in providing for our future needs
by using whatever materials are currently available
in improvised ways
in order to graft insights
onto the membranes of our dim senses...

and failing that,
then to simply turn us all into blithering, abstract lunatics.

Yours in supportive abstraction,
wbiro





 







Aug 9, 2005
My Dearest Ayizan,


I have strangely found it a great pleasure
to begin this third abstract letter,
on this, the third day of your exquisitely abstracted challenge
to elongate our minds
and tantalize our delirious adenoids,
so without further adieu, Ayizan...


There comes a time in a person’s life
when one plunges forward
and abandons one’s mistextured ways and their infinitesimal results
and immerses oneself in the stimulating dialog
between vegetable substances and antimatter.

For without that knowledge and insight
we might as well allow ourselves
to be overcome by intense, unreasoning love.


Hmmm, by all art, literature, and music,
that doesn’t sound like such a bad alternative, Ayizan!


But I digress, back to the abstracting matters at hand...

If we willfully ascend to stagnation
in order to be one with the flowers
we will realize that profundity does not come
in small containers,
but rather in beeswax.


Yours with abstract pleasure,
wbiro


 


 

 




PART II: THE PASSION


 



Aug 10, 2005
Ayizan, Dear Ayizan,


Once again I find myself
strangely confiding in you, Ayizan.
Though you take my presence
as a gray friendship,
I ask myself,
“Do I tinker with the toys of love?”


Beyond the heavens lie the answers;
here, in this dimensionless plane
I weave the yearnings of my wayward desires
into a shroud and keep them locked away
in metamorphic clouds of starlight
reflected on hidden ocean breezes
that cool my unbridled passion.


The convoluting surfaces between us are so fragile, Ayizan, 
that my stepping forward to draw nearer to you
would shatter them-
and plunge our untested relationship
into unarrayed matrices of despair.

The outer realm of my soul
holds its breath,
and does not scream.


Yours from across the fragility of abstraction,
wbiro


 











Aug 11, 2005
Dear Ayizan,

I believe my passion is growing.
Another day between letters
seems like another eternity
as I wait to pen your name again...
Ayizan!

Dare I say my passion grows?
I may wonder, but I do not ask why,
for the meaning of passion is beyond understanding
when beauty is boundless.

Do not ask why I say what I say anymore…
for attempting to explain it would undo me,
and would plunge my sanity forever
into an madly revolving kaleidoscopic nuance
of reflections of teasing, bitter abstractions.

Sometimes the heart and the mind
are better left apart.

Yours in a torn abstract passion,
wbiro
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Aug 12, 2005
Dear Ayizan,


Today, I wake from an abstract dream
into an world
filled with thoughts of you.


A simpler iota in this universe I would be
if not for my pierced heart
rendering your image into my every waking thought.


My passion still grows, Ayizan.
When will this madness end?
Tell me to desist
and I will find an electroluminescent union
in a cubic partition
of a planar world for my forlorn soul
and crawl into it, and disintegrate.


Just slay me, Ayizan!
Tell me I’m insane
and place a pixilated daisy
on the virtual grassy knoll
where the follies of my desires lie buried
to stay my heart and remind me that I am a fool!


Before I completely lose my mind,
toss me from this universe
and into the jagged peaks and fuming fissures
of a fractal landscape
of nonexistence,
where life is more certain,
for I cannot endure this one any longer.


Yours in abstract madness,
wbiro


 











Aug 13, 2005
Dear Ayizan,

While waiting
to write this letter to you, Ayizan,
the entire spectrum of my feelings
crashed through a glass prism of confusion and desires
and tumbled into the depths of a long emptiness
that lasted until I found my pen,
when life breathed through me again...

I am bewildered, Ayizan.
what could have brought this on?
Am I but an insect
at the mercy of nature
when I say your name, Ayizan?
Ayizan.
Ayizan!

Oh, throw me to the lions,
for I am a sinner!
Until then,
I am just an empty shell
on the eroding beach of time.

Yours in abstract emptiness,
wbiro

 


 
 




PART III: THE MEETING




Aug 14, 2005
Dear Ayizan,

Perhaps we can meet at the café
by the sea of eternity?
Saturday, 9 AM.
I'll await you there.
Tell the host who you are,
for he and the entire community
knows what afflicts me now!

Yours with an abstract heartbeat,
wbiro










Aug 15, 2005
Dear Ayizan,

You will not receive this letter
until after we have met and parted tomorrow,
and yet I write it today.
I should tear it up,
yet I am torn.
My mad thoughts of you
bring me to this moment in life
where all is won or all is lost.
Tomorrow, I will ask you 'The Question'.

Know this, Ayizan,
no matter what your answer is,
today I love you, and forever I will love you.
Today, I will have to bear life just one day longer
in this uncertain madness,
wondering, guessing.
Tomorrow I discover my fate,
and as you are reading this letter
my life will have joyfully begun
in an ecstatic spiraling ascension,
orit will have ended, 
sliding helplessly downward
in linear regressions of doomed misery.

Tomorrow we meet!
I cannot say the words slowly enough
as the images taunt my mind;
the trembling, the tingling, the burning desire,
the mad anticipation.
Oh, what good are my eyes, Ayizan,
when I am blinded by the thoughts of you?

Yours in a blind abstraction,
wbiro
 
 










Aug 16, 2005
Dear Ayizan,

 

I tremble. We meet.
Our eyes lock, our hands clasp,
I noticed with joy
that nature has complimented us...

Our first kiss
I imagined
was to be just a little one,
a question with yet no answer,
but I, like a thief that day,
stole more!
You send me soaring into unknown realms
where I teetered on the edges of certainty and then doubt.
Our kiss holds, and does not end,
even against the tempests of due trials,
and it holds against time.
I knew you right there, Ayizan.
But it was fleeting...

Of yourself, Ayizan,
I may never completely know.
No, my mysterious Ayizan,
does such confusion torment you?
Your eyes are always one shade brighter than mine
and gazing slightly beyond my reach...
Yet when I asked you 'The Question'
you did not hesitate...
and I stood in awe,
marveling.
It is the happiest day of my life!

Yours in abstract happiness,
wbiro

 









Aug 17, 2008
Dear Ayizan,

 

Our honeymoon has been three years now,
our wedding seems like a dream away.
The feet of our little ones patter about,
and each footfall brings me joy.

What of you, Ayizan?
Am I to simply accept your happiness?
Ever since the day
I stole our first kiss
I've been unsure.
Did I steal you away from another,
thinking only of myself?

Your joy seems pure,
but I wonder how that can be
when others with more are still miserable.

I can only hope I do not wake
if this is a dream.

Yours in an abstract dream,
wbiro
 
 

 


 




PART IV: THE VOYAGE


 
 
Aug 18, 2014
Dear Ayizan,

It has been three months
since I departed on this voyage, Ayizan.

The thoughts of you carry me
through each difficult day.
When I am away like this
I miss you more dearly than ever.

Yet I've always wondered,
do you feel the same?
I shudder to think I have not
brought you the same happiness.
Such a certainty has always bitterly eluded me.

Ayizan, my wife, the sea is stormy tonight,
as are my thoughts.
If the sea were to swallow me whole this hour,
I would depart with the question
that has plagued me through the years,
"Do you love me, Ayizan?"

Yours, tossed by an abstract sea,
wbiro
 










Oct 31, 2014
Dear Ayizan,

 

Your husband's ship was lost in a storm.
There were several survivors,
but your husband was not among them.

Regretfully,
The East Indian Ocean Co., Ltd.








 


Nov 7, 2014
Dear Ayizan,

 

I have floated for days,
and I am about to give up.
The pain, the cold, the hunger,
the thirst, they all consume me.

My mind is no better than that of a lowly animal's, 
while at other times God touches me
and gives me hope.

It would be easy
to leave this life behind right now,
so easy...
No one would question it.
Letting go would be natural,
and completely understandable.
The earth is whispering,
beckoning me
to let go...

Why I do not,
you do not need to wonder, Ayizan.

Yours with abstract determination,
wbiro









 

Jan 8, 2015
Dear Ayizan,

It was my fortune to have drifted
near an atoll of small, tropical islands.
The natives rescued me.

In my delirium
I saw you in their childlike eyes.
They were kind,
and they nursed me back to health.
They have our family picture
hanging in their hut today.
They marvel at our children.
I think they understand now
how I survived.

My official name here is
Sa‘anu‘u ‘O le tane
meaning 'Wrinkled, Puckered Man',
for when they found me
I was not a pretty sight!

I have been here for two months.
Today a clipper ship has arrived.
I say goodbye to my Samoan friends.
I am on my way home to you.
Ayizan!

Yours, sailing home over abstract waters,   
wbiro
 
 
 
 


 




PART V: THE MARRIAGE


 
 
Dec 25, 2020
Dear Aziyan,

Our children are growing,
our families large,
our friends cherished.

What, on this Christmas Day,
could I ask of, beyond you, Ayizan?
If I had but one wish,
it would be to live our lives together,
over and over again!
Alas, we have but one life each,
and so here is my gift to you, Ayizan,
my once mad love turned unerring.
For I now know I was not wrong.

It is not much,
and I wonder,
have I given you enough in this life?

Yours with Yuletide abstract love,
wbiro
 
 








 
 
Aug 19, 2025
Dear Ayizan,

We've been married twenty years now,
and yet my eyes do not wander.
Your grace holds me in captivity
in a sea of love, joy, happiness, contentment;
I walk on air whenever your still dazzling eyes  
acknowledge that I am here.

I am ever soaring
as I journey through this life with you, Ayizan,
and into eternity.

Yours from abstract eternity,
wbiro
 








 

Aug 20, 2063
Dear Ayizan,

We've been married fifty-eight years now.
Feeble am I, and old and gray.

Time has slipped by, but has failed to dim my love.
Ayizan.
We have made time stand still for many years.

Yours, fading slowly into abstraction,
wbiro




 




PART VI: THE END


 


Aug 21, 2074
Dear Ayizan,

This my last letter, Ayizan. I know. I feel it.

Oh Ayizan,
what can death bring to me now?
I am not saddened,
for the treasure of the world I have held
whenever I have held you in my arms.
Our children, and our children's children's children, are dearer
than all the stars in the universe.

Heaven has come to claim my last breath.
Will you join me in Heaven, Ayizan?
Tell me you will.
Ayizan Tell me.
Say you will. Ayizan.


Ayizan...
 


















 





















 

Author notes

This poem was written for an abstract contest by Ayizan, so it began abstract, but it turned into a storied romance...

The pictures are the the original versions of the letters before the letter's many literary edits...

It was originally intended as one new letter a day... hence the dates; and my imagination took off from there...


Written August, 2005

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  • wishintreeUK
    November 2, 2006
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    Congratulations on Bronze, well done!

    ~Katie~


  • grannyeri gold member
    November 1, 2006
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    What a lot of work you have done to create this masterpiece. Congratulations for winning bronze in this contest.


  • Sandi Alford gold member
    November 1, 2006
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    Congratulations!!!


  • sandgoddess
    November 1, 2006
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    congrts! I sure dig originality and innovation!

    best,
    rachel


  • myrataal silver member
    October 13, 2006
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    Refined and creative

    Thank you for the journey in abstraction -- it is indeed a microcosmic whole. The presentation is magical and the art excellent.



    Myra


  • Sandi Alford gold member
    October 12, 2006
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    BRILLIANT !!!!!

    Ah My! One word for this undertaking, (please read fine print above)

    best wishes my friend! Sandi


  • wbiro gold member
    August 14, 2005
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    HEY, look, everyone- I have a new AP daughter! and talk about a treasure! I am as lucky as the character in the story!

    Wait a minute, I WAS the character in the story!!! Talk about lucky!

    luv to my lavender shadows!
    ( like only an AP dad can! )


  • lavender shadows
    August 13, 2005
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    OK, honestly... every day I keep coming back, and it keeps getting better! Today it's the seperations and names of the different stages. Again, love it! Is there really anything else I need to add?

    Your AP daughter,
    Christina
    (aka, ~lavender shadows~)


  • FallingSideways silver member
    August 13, 2005
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    I am already driving you crazy long before you adopt me?
    LOL...
    I think you may be in for a rough time if you do
    Hmm...
    Perhaps I can come up with something more appeasing concerning my name...
    Just for you of course
    -G

  • wbiro gold member
    August 13, 2005
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    thx my dearest Swtaswine9, you,ve identified an aspect I was blind to- where I had in mind an unbalanced lover, you saw an unbalanced love...! It just reminds me why I want to adopt you!
    PS- please put the two e's in your name- it's driving me crazy!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

  • FallingSideways silver member
    August 13, 2005
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    This truly was a poignant and beautifully penned piece
    As this was something that actually tugs; especially since love is something that's never fairly balanced. *SIGHS*
    You did do a wonderful job at conveying the emotions and overall "feel" of this. A MUCH deserved applause!
    -G

  • wbiro gold member
    August 13, 2005
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    Thanks, King! Your name... familiar... perhaps the masterblaster contest... yes! the forlorn Ogre! Great one, there!


  • MuddyKing
    August 13, 2005
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    brilliant

    Brilliant!

  • wbiro gold member
    August 13, 2005
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    Hello, arctic! I like your page! 13, hmmm... Well, some answers now! That would be 'writer'- and good question- Ayizan could have been a guy! The letters- this whole thing was for Ayizan's 'abstract writing' contest- which explains the 'code'! and I love writing abstractly. I already knew Ayizan, and it was easy to let the love flow for her. The story concept slowly evolved over a few days... thanks for the feedback!


  • Salt of Earth
    August 13, 2005
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    wow. the first one sounds like its in code or something. I must ask, were these letters actually letters? Imean, did you send these to someone, or did someone send them to you? They're all so full of emotion. Nice write. er, writess.

  • Art of Ignorance
    August 13, 2005
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    Oh god. It's...Flawless. Brilliant. I should do that sometime. Creative idea.

    Yours in an abstract eternity,
    wbiro

    I particularly like this, but I don't know why.

    It's beautiful.


  • SimpleSarcasm
    August 12, 2005
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    Well this is an interesting read. I don't know who the person is that you are talking about or who the letter is too but I do hope that they appreciate your creativity.

    ~Dee

  • wbiro gold member
    August 12, 2005
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    Hello, T.K.! Thanks for the insight! The 'pictures' are actually the same as the following letter... so you didn't have to strain your brain trying to read the abstractions!!! thanks for the input, I'll have to think about that problem...


  • KariiB89
    August 12, 2005
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    im confused!!!!! all the swapping back and forth to the weird letters and the regular was confusing. gives me a headache trying to read it. good job though. im sure it would have been good if i would have been able to follow it.
    ~kariime~


  • Abdul T Alishtari
    August 12, 2005
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    Super

    art like this lives
    and it also gives
    it has a place
    right in your face.

    instant rhyme by AT Alishtari


  • August 12, 2005
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    I like the combination of poetry and art (not that poetry isn't its own art...)

    brilliant idea


  • IamMEg
    August 12, 2005
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    *I like the effect - it is a challenge to read - but the result is effective - good to see someone writing outside the box! Keep it up.


  • beebee2003
    August 12, 2005
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    woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow im speechless

  • wbiro gold member
    August 12, 2005
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    OK, Ayizan, now I am going to finish the 'collection' (each with pictures of course!). I'll keep this one however, it's nice to have them all in one place...

    Oh, and I don't know what you did to draw all this out of me, but thanks!


  • sadsexymama
    August 12, 2005
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    :)

    greatjob keep up the great work

  • Tragic Love
    August 12, 2005
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    WOW thats all i can say is WOW that was the best peom i have ever read and or will read WOW


  • thricelightning
    August 12, 2005
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    *sob sob sob sob*'thisis so truely amazing!

    "(let me know if you cried or not,
    if not, then I'm going to work on that!) "

    I CRIED!


  • August 12, 2005
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    Wow, I really love this. It's so very creative. With this year and the future, I really loved it. It made me feel sad sometimes. But this is very awesome. Good job and good luck!!!
    Hugs and kisses,
    Sharika

  • rozz669
    August 12, 2005
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    i loved it- and am just amazed- i understand- this is awesome- keep on writing- amazing!

  • lavender shadows
    August 12, 2005
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    Even if you didn't make her cry, but I certainly did. This is outstanding! I'm really speechless... Wow. I don't think there's any more that I could add, this just speaks for itself.

    Outstanding job! I wish you the best of luck with this!

    ~lavender shadows~

  • wbiro gold member
    August 12, 2005
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    thank you, la reina, (I don't detect tears, I have work to do!!!) Inspiration- well, maybe it was the abstract challenge, and maybe that in our deepest soul that we will never come to understand!


  • B Chandler
    August 12, 2005
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    omgs im blushing....and badly at that hun u just made my days
    Rae

  • FREEversedSOUL
    August 12, 2005
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    very very nice. its very long but it works. congratulations on a good write!


  • ShatteredSilverStar
    August 12, 2005
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    how interesting, i love this for it's origonality.what a wonderful coice of words throughout all the letters that you have written here..may i ask what the inspiration for this was.. a close friendship perhaps?

  • lavender shadows
    August 11, 2005
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    Wow, I totally adore this! These are so incredibly written, of course, but the graphics are so outstanding.

    Good luck in the contest (although I daresay that you probably don't need it! )

    ~lavender shadows~


  • The burner
    August 10, 2005
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    loved the poem very much and what more? i loved the graphics very very much. and the style is something i am dying to copy.

  • Molly Densmore silver member
    August 10, 2005
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    EXCELLENT

    Oh my goodness, I am speechless, the talent you have within makes me in awe. These were so wonderfully good and so well written, I don't know what to say. You have a great art for the abstract. Excellent pieces you have created. I love the abscure pictures that fit so well with the writes. I really enjoyed these and thank you for sharing these special writes.


  • Cyber Artist Moderators member
    August 10, 2005
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    Very Clever and fancy a multi media poet
    Paul

  • Saki
    August 10, 2005
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    This was sophisticated and very creative. I applaud you friend. You should be proud of your talent.

  • Eturnal-Tiger
    August 10, 2005
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    whoa your a amazing poet i thought your backgrounds were awesome i've never seen anything like this before your a unique poet and should be proud i'm adding you to my favourite this is fantastic well done best wishes MNR xx

  • buffytheparrotslaye
    August 10, 2005
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    Brilliant!

    Crafty,creative,very innovative and will read it again and again to digest each word and sardonic comment!


  • Danna Hobart
    August 10, 2005
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    Incredibly creative! I am at a loss for words, so I will just applaud.


  • d a f f o d i l
    August 10, 2005
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    wow! this was really phenominal! well done with this! wow...i am astouded!


  • Touchof1der silver member
    August 10, 2005
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    I can well imagine the joy and elation that Ayizan was feeling when she read this. You are a remarkable poet and friend and you have such a big heart. This is wonderful Wayne.
    ♥ Kimberly


  • suseann
    August 8, 2005
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    Masterwork

    Well,I''m at a loss for words. But your most certainly not! I loved the line about the banana connecton. Speaking of bananas,I find your grafics appealing in word and pictured grafics.SanRanTastic job on this unique piece!And much luck in the contest.Though I don't see as you'll be needing it!~~~Suseann


  • wbiro gold member
    August 7, 2005
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  • B Chandler
    August 7, 2005
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    omgs ...faints and hits the floor hard lol im freaking stomped by this write omgs wow wooo


  • LxSER
    August 7, 2005
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    Interesting piece. But yet another killer write non the less. The pictures, or whatever, are nifty and creative, and insane (heck yes). But keep it up my friend.

    LxSER

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