You will never forget my face
It will be the last you see
Your mind's eye may hold a different character
But the character I play is not acting
The bitter anger, pain, rage, and hate are building for this day
Every woman you took dignity from
Every breast, every nipple, every vagina, anus, mouth-
I am every bit of flesh you pillaged from
I am victim
I am survivor
And now I am killer
Bare-handed and unchanged in appearance since last we met
I can not bear to rape you
I know the damage it causes
And you'd probably enjoy it anyway
Death is easier
It's not the answer that I search for
And it won't stop the questions
But at least you will not be able to make others question it
Leaving them unanswered for the rest of their lives
Your intimidation flared my submission
I hate you for it and hate myself more
You dominated me and my pride
I fell before you
You took pleasure in my ruin
The damage you caused is permanent
The scars unfading, the memories as fresh as if they were present time
You left me alive and yet I am dead
You left me with questions unanswered
Why?
If I ever find you
I hope that courage will take the place of fear
Bravery only comes to those who have been wounded
If I ever find you
I'm afraid that it will be in death
That you will ask for forgiveness
Something I cannot and refuse to give
If I ever find you
I'm afraid that my questions will remain unanswered
That the answers are what I fear
Death would never be enough
Author notes
Inspired by personal experience and the book 'Lucky' by Alice Sebold- I recommend it...
Written July 25th, 2005
A contest entry
- Hate Me, Kill Me by thorlorn thanatos.
380 points, ended March 30, 2007, 102 entries
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this was a very well written write..your wors were very powerful, emotional and strong..i can relate to this in a way..keep writting your very talented and good luck in the contest.
~Chrissy~ -
EXACTLY...
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Funny how we seek to kill those who harm us, and end up deepening are own wounds. Victory may be achieved..but the destruction will still continue.
-Jennifer -
Thank you love. It was inspired by my own experinces and Alice Sebold's poem she wrote to her rapist in 'Lucky' the memoir of her rape. I recommend the book. Or Speak by Laurie Hasle Anderson [i belive that's her name]. I have not had the courage to do as my poem says but I hope that you find the strength. I write about this topic often. I'm always here if you need someone...
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I LOVE THIS...not to be weird like i like the thought of it...i like how strong you are and how you seem to be standing up to him...i love how angry your emotions are and how you just seem to be screaming the poem as i am reading it...i really love the line
"Bravery only comes to those who have been wounded"
those are very srong, wise words. you are a strong woman, mentally and physically. thank you for standing up to you fears and attacker(even if it was just in the poem) i hope that i one day will be able to have the strength that you have so i can stand up to mine.
Blind Lover
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