A black night is opening it's eyes to me
Grinning because it knows
About the blood stained floor
Where I'm lying on
I lay dying
In my own scream of silence
All my cries for help
Are unheard,
Nobody knows
How long I had to take this,
I'm all alone
I live my life dying, not embraced, vowing
I live in a lie
Covered in an embrace
That couldn't even last during this pain
Now I know how it feels like,
I know it for such a long time,
Standing alone in front of Death.
You uncovered me to the knife
I never felt love,
Only just this once
And, a second falling into another one
You trowed me into the arms of Death.
Now I don't have to run anymore
Death is holding me,
The death that I was running for...so many years
My wounds cry for the grave,
my soul cries for deliverance
Why have you gone, my tourniquet?
Now I realize that I'm a thing to play with, to try out
Nothing, not even worth a thought
I'm so scared,
I'm so afraid,
I love you
Until death tears us apart, my angel
Author notes
This was my first suicide poem, written 4 years ago. I don't think this is my best write, but it is the most true and pure one.
A contest entry
- Poems of Death by Faerie.Princess.
300 points, ended September 28, 2006, 54 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Love is the slowest form of suicide... by Yours-To-Have.
500 points, ended March 22, 2007, 79 entries
Honorable mention
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Love it!
Thanks for the entery! I'm glad that you entered my contest! This is a very good write. I think "realise" is spellt wrong, but I sux at that stuff. Tell me soon so I don't go crazy. I'm glad you put that this is a non-fiction piece in the author's box. It made me understand the poem better. My favorite line is "you uncovered the knife to me." I love that line! Hang on and good luck!
XOXOXO!!!!
**Amanda**
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Thanks for the lovely comment, hun
yeah it's a miss-spelled word 
I'm sorry for replying so late, but I don't get warned when someone sends me a message
I don't know what I have to do about that...
Thank you again for your nice words, they are much appreciated!
Blessed Be
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this is an amazing poem.. its beautifully writen its so...pretty and dark and emotional. its a beautifully written poem. i dont really know wat else to say. good luck in the contest and keep writing
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AWESOME write. this was brillantly written.thanx for entering in the contest.good luck
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nice work
Good work...good luck in the contest also...
Amanda Rhea -
your poem was great! dark, sad, and sorrowful. My fav. part, it's from and Evanescence song! (good sense)keep up the good work!
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this was an amazing poem...hmmm...the last three lines are from Tourniquet by evanescence......thats cool though i like it when people use songs for inspiration....best of luck to you in my contest!
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thank you so much for your great advice! It's awfull that you felt so bad that you attemped yourself so many times!
But it's great to hear that you actually found your light! the way you explained this just did me cry, thank you so much (k)
I wrote this poem almost a year ago, as a farewell letter. Now I'm out of my depression and feel reborn again
Hopefully this feeling will stay and never let me go again
thank you (k)
Evi(f) -
blood tourniquet, you sure have made an interesting first impression. I've attempted many times myself and it's taken me over 10 tries, 5 hospitalizations, and countless meds to finally realize that when it's time for me to go, I'll know. I hate to sound all religious (I'm really not at all), but it's really not for me to choose when I go. I'm a great believer in fate, luck, chance, and love. Remember that there are many people, I'm sure, that love you. I've lost many to suicide and it's truly changed my perspective on what I did. When someone takes their own life, friends and family are left to ask "Why?" sighs Now this comment's gotten a bit too preachy for me, so I'll just leave you with this quote, "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." There is a light at the end of your tunnel, you just have to walk a little farther to find it. I hope you find it soon. Be well and keep writing.
Welcome to AllPoetry, blood tourniquet! I hope you have a wonderful time here! If you need anything, just ask.
Kate
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AWESOME!
Good write ! Keep it up!
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