Suicidal, every day
Sadistic bitch, I heard him say
Don't try to fix me
I'm just bent, not broken
Don't get close to me
I will tear you apart
Don't love me
Cause I have a poisoned heart
You'll never know what real pain is
I never knew until I felt his
Now it's all I think about
But you'll never feel, I doubt
I'm dead inside
You should have been me when I cried
Wilted like a flower
In a darkened corner I cower
Torn apart and ripped away
That's what you did to my heart that day
My love, is now what I fear
My love, I hate with every tear
I'm gonna fucking kill myself, you're to blame
My love, you never came
I'm suffocating in a hell I created
Goddamnit I wish I was sedated
You haunt my mind with every thought
With my dieing breath, I'll think of you not
You're another step to pave
Just another step, closer to my grave
I'll fall gently as a feather
But you'll never hear of me again, forever
My drug, my opiate, my fiend, my obsession
This is solely for you, my last confession
Fuck you for loving me
Fuck you for leaving me
All of my happy memories are replaced
Loving you was such a waste
I'd die in your arms, if you still loved me
But I know that never can or will be
I turn blue and you find me drowning
Why are you here love, why are you frowning
Are you really hear
My love, my dear
Only imagined, my last gaze
Life was so complicated, an unending maze
I feel you grasping my arm now
I don't know why you came or how
Too late the water has filled my lungs
My life is ending, my last song has been sung
You stare into my cold, dead eyes
'Don't leave me' you say, but I know its all lies
'I love you' you confide
But now it's too late, it's over, I died.
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another one...yea
Written July 30th, 2005
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im so sorry i don't kow why I left you alone that summer i feel like shit pulling me under, i felt so bad when i read this my knuckels bleed as i clinch my fist i love you forever and as long as life remains because your love fills my vains.
Luthrus
had to do that k talk to you later mello -
very very good i know, i know?
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Very deep and passionate, a good write...
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Hiding sadness..in me..?
Sorry ..I could not finish my comment ..but, you take my breath away..! Full of Sadness, Despair, Wrath, Hate.. life itself...
Now please tell me are you ok..? why all this emotions ..? I have read other poems from you ..but, tell me is everything ok..? Because I have to admit that I found myself a little bit worry....for you..
Take care...and sometimes..
" Memories are personal gems or curse's "
When you find out..there's always a hope of light ..at the end of the tunnel.. -
Full of Broken desires of Death...you keep tearing apart the already broken wings of my curse back...
you're amazing
"Hermosa nina...."
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omg i can relate to this so much! i think what i really liked bout it is that you said " im just bent not broken." i love that line because to me it means this is only temporily and that i hope is true. i know how it is to have someone tell you that they love you and than they leave you. you start to build a wall around yourself and stop trusting all people. well anyway what i really wanted to say is that you did a really wonderful job and if you ever need to talk im here to listen!
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