The Jungle

I can't stand this torture
The romance of this adventure
Is all but dead
The waiting continues
Other paths unfold
Every one more tempting then the last
I journey forward
Towards the hidden treasure
That lies deep in the jungle
Many have told me it couldn't be done
But it's been my goal for long
As I trek deeper and deeper into the jungle
My uneasiness heightens
But I know I must continue on toward the treasure
For which I yearn
The path only gets harder
But my my will goes stronger
Till I come to a little village
Hidden deep within the chaos
There I stay to rest my feet
Thinking what a nice village it is
Little did I know how great my feelings
For this little village would grow
I decide to stay an extra day
I feel very at home in the village
One more day becomes one more week
And I grow to almost love the village
It is very dear to me
Although I never forget the treasure
That lies deeper in the jungle
On occasion I leave the village
To try and find a sturdy path
To lead me deeper into the jungle
And closer to my goal
But I never find what I seek
And always return to the village
Eventually the villagers ask me to stay
They say they want to make me family
I indeed want to stay in the village
Which has grown so dear to my heart
But my thoughts float back to the treasure
The ultimate goal
That I've yearned for for so long
With great sadness I must reject the villagers' offer
Then I decide to leave and continue my path
To that which will give me true happiness I know
As I travel on the path grows even thicker than before
My thoughts wander to those who told me
It couldn't be done
My will grows from this but I also question
My journey and goal
I think of the village
When I feel the need to be comforted
It's always there on my mind
I am torn between my goal of long
And this new found happiness in the village
I wonder if it's too late to turn back
Has the trail back to the village been consumed
By the chaos of the jungle
I feel the want I have for the village
Then my mind focuses once more on the treasure
It's what I'll want in the end I tell myself
I continue onward, deeper into the jungle
Slowly I begin to think of the village more and more
And the treasure less and less
I begin to wonder about the path back again
But I tell myself it's better to move forward
I think of the treasure
How great it will be when I find it
I can only imagine the happiness I will feel
Then I wonder if I'll forget the village
When I find the treasure
Then I wonder if I'll ever find the treasure
Then I wonder again of the path back to the village
Has it been lost in the chaos of the jungle forever
I feel unsure of my goal and my wants
I question everything
I begin to feel lost in the jungle
My thoughts are getting the better of me
All of them contradict each other
I can't stand it any loner
I am torn
The village, the treasure
It's all too much
Finally I run of the trail
Into the uncut wilderness of the jungle
I run and run and run
Not knowing which way I'm heading
Towards the the village
Or closer to my ultimate goal of the treasure
The darkness of the jungle's nights consume me
The chaos is growing every second I stay there
I am torn and it's killing me
I don't even know where I am any more
All i can see is the darkness and chaos of the jungle around me
My feelings and thoughts  of the two fill my mind to the brim
I scream
I am lost
I have been swallowed by the chaos of the jungle