The Pain
The wounds of the soul take a lifetime to heal
And my hurt has gone so deep I can’t even feel
My heart has gone numb, I can’t even cry
I have cried so much my tears are dry
I look into nothing and deeply sigh
How did this happen and why??
My trust is lost, my heart is sore
But I am so lost, I don’t even care
My cup is full, I can take no more
I am dead inside and live in despair
Expectancy
The night dawns with seductive slowness
The fiery sky yielding to the silvery mystic
The very silence mysteriously fascinating
Unspoken madness enveloping the air
Silent voices beckon me to join in the dance
To let myself go and be one with them
To shed all masks and pretences
A mystical mania grips me
I let go…. Go I know not where …
Shedding all control
Blissfully caught in my world
Where no one can intrude
I look forward to another night
A night spent savouring your love………
A night full of same dreams which;
I have been dreaming since our paths crossed.
Yet another night given up to our hopes…
Another night spent dreaming our dreams.
Yet another night of emptiness…….
Yearning for the other part …..
Which makes it complete.
Yet another night of happiness…….
Secure in the knowledge of you love.
Yet another night of remembrance………….
Embracing sweet memories,
Agonising over could have beens;
Shedding a few silent tears ,
I still yearn for…………………
Another night of those dreams
For every dream brings me closer to you
This is the way I hold you to me,
This is how I cherish your love,
This is the way I stay yours,
I love those dreams……
For each night is………….
the harbringer of the day
When you enter my world forever
And make the final commitment
Which would bind us together forever
For many more nights to come
Then when we met
I can see you stand alone in a crowd
Just a few feet away
Your eyes mirroring mine
Holding questions
That I dare not answer
Seeking answer that
I dare not explore
Your hopes reflect mine
Your feelings echo mine
I feel your uncertainty
For they too mirror mine
I can feel the years that separated us
Holding you back
I can also see the shared memories and love
Pulling you involuntarily to me
I can see you sense the good old magic
And wonder whether it will last
I can hear you silently beckon to me
Yet my feet stay stuck to the ground
It’s the day I have dreamt for
So many sleepless nights
OH how like the dreams it is
Yet how so different
Away from the midnight madness
Doubts clamp down my desire
My desire to rush into your arms
And stay there forever
I never dreamt that the heart that
cried for you and was yours in solitude
Would hedge from finalty
It knows to love is to give all
Yet holds back a part of itself
Building a wall against hurt
For it knows to love can be
To imprison in sweet words
To be at your whim
TO be in your power to make or break
TO feel hunted rather than wanted
It is afraid of this total subjugation
It shies away from this surrender
It knows Cupid can strike and pierce
And reveal a world of euphoric bliss
Or pour a fountain of acerbic unshed tears
Its afraid coz it seeks not
a few minutes of rapture
Rather a rhapsody of myriad emotions
Laughter, tears, swords and kisses
All ensconced in cushion of love
TO be myself and not have to please
Always sure of you to lean on
How little to ask and how very mundane
Yet it’s the mundane the heart fears
For it’s the most improbable
I take a tentative step forward
And wish you would take me in your arms
And tell me its okay to doubt
That it is as much a part of love
As the dreams and promises
The kisses and candlelight
The moonlit night and blushes
I wish I could tell you all this
As you stand alone in a crowd
A few feet away
Author notes
Written July 26th, 2005
A contest entry
- Lils 1st contest by TeenageTears.
300 points, ended August 29, 2005, 16 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
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It's an interesting idea to describe the phases of love. It's like more poems in one. Also, the descriptions you use are powerful and make me feel your emotion.
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Simi, well what can i say but excellant work but there is 2 things in my rules u 4got 2 do 1. was put the option u had chosen b4 the poem and the second was to put 'lil is da greatest' in author comments
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Well, since you asked. . .
I would like to see it end happily.
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I did want to leave the reader wondering. What do you think should happen to them. may be I will add another stanza soon though i think its long enough already
Simi
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Wonderful
'The night dawns with seductive slowness
The fiery sky yielding to the silvery mystic
The very silence mysteriously fascinating
Unspoken madness enveloping the air
Silent voices beckon me to join in the dance
To let myself go and be one with them
To shed all masks and pretences'
These words are pure bliss to me, dear poet! I felt as if I were floating in the stars! Ahh, if we could live like this all the time! Wonderful! I loved it! -
hmmm. I'd like to read your take on more of the phases. does this love end happily? or did you mean to leave the reader wondering?
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pretty long..but worth the read..I liked the middle bit about expectancy..lol...you are such a good poet(ess)..great write and good luck at the contest
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Shameful I am not a reader
You seemed to have covered it all. however I am thinking you could have said most of that in a shorter version for each stage of love. I feel you have poured all your feelings in and it would have made a nicer entry as a writing format. I like what you have said and love doing writing formats myself. You did a excellent job here of expressing loves pain wait and return. -
Interesting combination of beginning with despair then going into such incredible detail on love which seems to require all the things that did not exist any longer. Trust must have been reclaimed and good.
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very nice work, i liked it very much, keep up the good work, mojo xx
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Interesting and really literal in it's stance on love and the way in which it is a connected piece of artistry in itself. Tony.
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