How is my life going to turn out?
Where am I going to be five years from now?
Who am I going to be with?
Its scary not knowing where your going to be
Or not knowing who you will be with
I know I have said the same thing over and over again
I just don’t want to be alone at the age of fifty
One of those old ladies that sit in a chair with a lap full of catnip saying here kitty kitty
So there has to be somebody out there
I have seen so many guys that aren’t true to me
There was one that made me feel complete
Like I was the only one out there for him
But there was one problem
He already had a girlfriend
Scratch him off the list
But then there was always that one guy that said all the right things
Knew what I wanted to hear than told me just that
He would have said anything to get me back
Turns out my friends heard the same words
Because we were apparently all just taking turns
Oh but who can forget that one MAN that I couldn’t resist
Actually I still dream about him
Nobody really knows how I feel about this MAN
Nobody even knows his name
I have kept him a secret for all these years
He has swept me off my feet like no BOY could
But the only problem is he doesn’t know how he effects me
His girlfriend must be the happiest girl alive
And once again headfirst I dive
I bet you think there can be no more
I have named enough as it is
But you are wrong to think that
You are very wrong in that there is someone else
Someone who is kind and gentle
And he thinks he is to good for me
That I am to “hott to handle”
He is wrong, he is so good enough for me
He has everything I need
He captures all my hopes and desirers and fulfills all my WILDEST dreams
And yet I am as bold to say there is still another man that stands in the way
Though he has hurt, upset and emotionally abused me
There is no way I can sleep without him in my dreams
Not a moment goes by that I don’t wonder what is wrong with me
How stupid could I possibly be
Stupid enough to waste hours of my life thinking about him
Wanting him to call just so I can hear his voice
I feel as though I have absolutely no choice
I love him even though he has deeply hurt me
There are so many guys out there
Why is it that I have to find the ones that only hurt me?
Everybody says Casey you are beautiful and a guy would be lucky to have you
Why do I always have to reach out to ones that are way out of reach
Its like I see that they are out of arms length and then I jump to reach
And there I fall
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Right on the street
So I will pray tonight
I will pray to find the one for me
Or at least somebody that offers a little something
I want somebody to hold me and support me and all of my dreams
But there is to much to explain about the perfect guy and his personality
All that will have to be said in another poem written by me
Author notes
i was just sitting at my computer and thinking about how i need sombody in my life! and i hate the feeling of not being loved!!
Written July 25th, 2005
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aww casey baby i can name everyone of those guys mentioned in this poem!! it was really good i loved it it was longer htan any other of yours but ut was wounderfull
i love ya and you should know that i will always be here for you
i love you
chelsmonster -
Nice poem with emotions! As per this poem, your acceptance level is very high .. aptly portraied. You have given nice twist in between. Liked reading.
Best wishes,
manoj -
that is true Prince. for a whil i was ready to just settle for anybody. but what you said made me think. you pointed out one of my worst faults that i hadnt even realzed yet. so thank you! it means a lot to me!! THANK YOU!!
~*CASEY*~ -
thank you so much for that wonderful comment! and yes i have been through a lot! and what you said made me think. i apprieciate it so much thank you!
~*CASEY*~ -
Or at least somebody that offers a little something
That sounds like you're ready to accept anything. Where would that get you? Probably, right back where you started from. No, don't compromise on what you truly want. Be patient and wait for it. So many times we settle for the first thing that comes along, only to live to regret it. Believe in yourself Casey, and know that you are worth more than you think! Don't let your feelings dictate... let your heart do it.
Prince -
You sound like you've been through alot. Your poem reflects that and is well written. There is someone out there for you, they will take you in their arms and hold you tight and thats when you'll know that they'll always be there for you and you want to be with them. Don't let anyone not appreciate you for the wonderful girl i'm sure you are. You may love someone but if they aren't going to reciprocate it and care for you like they should then youe better off without them. The pain you feel because they're not in your life is far less than you will feel in a relationship where you are not appreciated.
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