there is always one who is the dark shadow upon your back,
but you never dream it will be your father.
the person who is partly responsible for your existence
defying the laws of nature,leaving the mother alone,
to cope with something uncontrollable at such an age,
fiendishly avoiding the subjects you desire knowledge of,
why, how, don't you care? do you love me?
2 years unspoken, no words traded, the silent language,
and so you know he doesn't care at all,
he is too selfish to care,
he just wants you to show off to anyone who he can,
and so you feel like a new toy,
you have your moments of interest,
and then,again you are placed on a shelf and forgotten,
covered in dust and memories
until the next time a performance arises
you feel cold inside,unwanted,and unloved,
like you're dying, so cold, you catch your breath,
stumble across the street, he stares at you blankly,
unaware of what to do, for he knows not of affection.
he doesn't understand how to care or what to say,
you don't even know whyhe's there, if he cares as much for you,
as the homeless guy on the street corner,
forever hoping for love from a family,
and a secure home, but you never will have this
you can dream,you can dream,but you will never know..
you will never know love from him
and he will never know the father that he could have been.
Author notes
this is personal to me, because my father is a womanising b*std and he hadn't spoken 2 me 4 almost 2 years. he maried ma mum divorced her maried sumone else had 2 ids divorcing her rite now. he currently has a girlfriend half his age (shes 23) and they've jus hada baby 2getha.so go eays on ur coments please, this is a touchy subject with me.cheers xxxx
Written July 24th, 2005
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thanku,i'm glad someone else understands what its like properly. it's just got worse though,i saw my dad in town and he might be moving with his new girlfriend and baby to the same village as me
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This is a wonderful write. I know how you may feel, same thing going on with me and my dad. I loved the write and stay strong...
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I dont know what to say..i'll just say its a wonderful write and stay strong xxxx
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Wow such a powerful heartbreaking poem. I'm sorry to hear it is personal, it must be really hard for you. Tragic, heartfelt and beautiful. Thanks for entering my contest, best of luck and heres a hug
~Lana
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oooh. . . Sad. I really liked this poem, especially the end, because it brought out the emotion really well. Good job.
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aw, sweet, i'm so sorry things have been tough. I sometimes feel like this with my mum.. she does the most reckless things, and i know deep down, she resents us. Ill be posting more stuff about the shit that's happened in my life.. reading it may make you feel a bit better
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This is so sad hunni...very heartfelt and emotional. i love the lines
"you have your moments of interest,
and then,again you are placed on a shelf and forgotten" keep up the good work hun
xxx
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thanku, im sure he does, it just doesn't seem like it right now xxx
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This is sad, but still a very beautiful write! Very emotional! I think you did an excellent job with this!
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very sad
This is so powerfully sad and typical of many families in our society today. Being a father myself with children from a previous marriage, I can guarantee you that deep inside, your father does care about you and thinks of you often. Sometimes guilt gets in the way of divorced fathers becoming close to their children. Excellent , emotional write. -
This is a very touching and sad piece. I understnad your pain and emotins you are trying to express hear, and you do this very well...
Now onto the poem itself, to me I don't know if this really is a poem, it's more like a story with rhythm. To me, a poem has balanced equal flow across all of it's lines. But sometimes Chaos is the best Order, is it not?? Another thing is the length of it. I know youhave a message you are trying to convey, and in your amount of lines you do it perfectly, but some of the imagery is a bit slow and repetitive, but if you feel strongly about something you have to express it. Just some minor flaws, but otherwise it's a touching and amzing write. -GoR
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