Torn

Wanting to forget my past
Learning how to forgive
fighting off the memories that last
that haunt me as I live
I'm torn between moving on
or holding on so tight
But it's hard to be strong
When I cry every night
I don't want to hold onto this
But letting go is hard
Good memories and thoughts I miss
My broken heart is scarred
I don't know why I can't move on
the pain just hurts too great
It's like saying you weren't wrong
and letting you get away
So I hold on as tight as can be
to what you put me through
I want you to see what you did to me
So you could  hurt just like I do
I think what hurts the most is losing someone I love
Looking up to you and trusting you with ease
The vision of you will never be the same, praying up above
God help me please
Forgive, I want to do
But the pain is just too much to let go
That it was caused by you
There is hurt you will never know