I'm Not There
You can talk to me, hold me when I cry, you can do almost anything, to stop me from wanting to die. You can yell and scream, say it's not me to blame, but to me it feels like a dream, and someone callin my name.
You can wake me up, and wipe the tears that fall down, but I don't think that life has had enough, everytime I look around. You can catch me if I fall behind, tell me everything is going to be alright, you can say "I love you" time after time, but you'll find me cryin in my bed at night.
You can kiss me and whisper words in my ear, you can brush your fingers through my hair, you can tell me that there is nothing I should fear, but I'm not there.
I'm lost within,
deep inside myself,
I've fallen again,
when I needed your help.
You can stare at the scars that are on my wrist, you can comfort me, and ask me "why did you do this," and I'll look at you and wait for you to leave. And once again I'll start to hide, I'll fight back tears, I'll try not to cry, even while you're here.
I'll just hide this pain, I'll act like everything is fine, so when you say my name, I wouldn't fall behind.
You can kiss me and whisper words in my ear, you can brush your fingers through my hair, you can tell me that there is nothing I should fear, but I'm not there.
I'm lost within,
deep inside myself,
I've fallen again,
when I needed your help.
I'm not there, that image that you see, I'm not there, I'm not the one you wanted me to be.
I'm not there, you would never understand, because I'm not there, I'm still lost within.
But I'm here now, to show you that I was wrong, I'm sorry that I turned around, when you knew what was goin on. I'm sorry that I pushed you away, because I was afraid of what you would do, I didn't know what you would say, I didn't know if I could turn to you.
I didn't know how much you cared, everytime that you were around me, maybe I was just too scared, and afraid that you would turn your back and leave.
I didn't know if you would turn away, I didn't know how you would react, now everytime you look my way, I know I can't get you back.
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