I really don't know
how to feel.
Could everyone be right?
Will you hold me back?
Is it all gonna happen...
again?
Could I ever believe
that you've lied to me?
Made me believe you loved me,
but only used me.
Are you really capable,
of such a scheme?
Why do I cry
myself to sleep every night?
If I didn't love you,
would I still cry...
Or do I cry...
because I don't love you?
Can everything be just like it was before?
With trivial fights,
and mediocre problems...
Or will I always fear,
that you'll leave.
I hate how I
don't trust you anymore.
How I worry when I'm alone
or I question our love...
But mostly I hate,
everything I don't understand.
Can't we please
go back to before?
When we were happier, closer...
When everything seemed brighter.
Can't I just forget? After all-
Isn't ignorance bliss?
Author notes
I'm really having a hard time dealing with the fact that Eugene cheated. And its not helping that I keep getting unwanted advice. I mean, seriously. I know you're only trying to help, but you're making it harder on me.
Written June 21st, 2005
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I absolutely love this write.. that's the truth.. so much emotion is apparent, and it's too bad that it took heartache to mold such a wonderful poem.. sorry, if it seems like I'm rambling, but I really can't get over how wonderfully written this is, maybe it's because i relate, i dont know... but the ending could not be anymore fitting... wonderful, and i mean wonderful job with this one.
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I only have one piece of advice & I'd like to share it. Follow your heart Beth Ann, everyone has a different opinion where things like this are concerned but they are not you & they don't feel the pain that your heart feels. We are all individuals and we each feel differently in such circumstances. Stop listening to the world & listen to your heart. I hope you're ok. La x
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doesn't everyone deserve a second chance?
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