Oh, please just let me
Just let me to do it once
Help me to feel better
"But you said silently,
"Never again'"
But it'll stop the stinging
"And cause even more"
It'll stop the pain
"And cause a worse pain"
But...
But it will stop the tears
"And trigger my own"
You want me to feel better
"You wanted the same for me"
I still do...
But it's been so long
"And will continue to lengthen"
But the urge is so strong
"And you'll continue to fight it"
But I don't want to anymore...
I miss the sharp caress
"Wouldn't you rather mine?"
I miss the blooming flowers
"You are the blooming flower"
Wilting and dying...
I want to feel the sting
"At the cost of my stinging tears"
I didn't promise
"But I am proud of you"
Fine...
Author notes
I don't know how many will fully understand it, but the meaning is pretty obvious if you've been through similar, or know me well enough.
Don't cut. Seriously. Ever.
Written June 20th, 2005
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500 points, ended July 5, 2005, 11 entries
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Thank you for your comment. The urge is so very hard to fight at times. I often just want to give up. Good luck with judging.
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I can relate to this in many ways. Me and someone I loved argued for hours about my urges to cut. You did a wonderful job on this poem. Keep writing, and good luck.
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Wow, I haven't seen you in forever. Thank you for your comment. It's actually...well, my boyfriend and I arguing about my need to cut.
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such a spiral of emotion,all,i feel,going down.
i am not sure which of the two things this is about,unless it is both,but i understand the wanted desire to end the suffering.
i guess good talent will let itself be expressed no matter what the boundry of the moron reading it
-cheers
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Thank you.
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i dont even know u and the message is obviously clear but im not gonna say it out of respect but overall this write packs a punch and i liked it alot good luck
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Thank you.
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wow great write. thanks for entering and good luck!
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Nah. I like tihs one better times a billion.
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Haha. Go ahead. I like comments. I like the one I wrote before this one much better. I have inspiration for the first time in weeks!
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Oh. This was beautiful. I know what it's about. I feel the same way. Sometimes. And the fact that you had quotations from another sentient being makes me think of Gackt. Yeah, this poem reminded me of Gackt's style. Or something. Me saying that means that it was beautiful, lol. Oh dear. Webtalk. Or dear, rambling. *applaudes and runs away*
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Thanks, dear. This actually happened last night. Haha. I don't plan on giving in again, but I did feel like asking if I could, do I wrote this.
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I know exactly what you're going though, hun; I'm having to deal with it myself, actually. It sucks.. But, eventually the urges will subdue.. Maybe not fully, but gradually.. The side glance of the blade will always thrill you, though. ._. However, I'm glad to hear that it's been over a year, or there abouts. Soo.. Yersh. O o; Nice write, and jumk. <3
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Thank you both for your kind words. Perhaps the ache may fade at some time, but one can't really tell when it's only been a year.
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my stepson read this and this is his coment :- this is so cool I get it 100% in my own way. congradulations great poem. excellent write. I know where you are comming from and can empathise with you ..... I'm age 16.. from slipme123.. keep up the great work
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great work
keep up your strength the longing will lessen over time and eventually fade to a dull ache where you will forget what it is your aching for. grat write full of emotional conflict and struggle. hold in there. time...... is the key.
hugs and a smile ausangel -
I haven't given in in a year since this April, honey. Don't worry about me.
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It's so hard when all you wanna do is give in and there's people that you've told you won't and it may not be a promise but to let them down would break their heart... and yours. Don't give in honey. I know how bad you want to, I'm there most nights. But if we do then the cycle starts all over again.
Take care love
Shari
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Wow, now I understand it a whole lot more... Just needed another reading and less distraction. At first I thought it was a inner conflict. I like this lots. Good job.
Edited on Jun 20, 8:35 p.m. because ''.
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