Dear Mom,
I never thought my life would turn out like this. I was so confused
and even though I could hear your voice in my head
telling me that you would be there to talk to,
I didn't think I could share this with you. I know it was unfair,
now that I'm here I want to tell you that I know what you are thinking,
I can feel your love for me. It's so much stronger from here.
We take for granted that the people around us will always be here.
And yet I felt alone. I couldn't endure feeling alone. I don't know
why the absence of feeling was so strong, and
I hid from you my struggles with life. I'm sorry Mom.
Please let me tell you now, that I am still not really gone.
You see me everyday in what remains of my footprint on life.
The colorings from elementary school, drawings that say I love you,
My friends who I know still think of me, and pray for you
I am alive because they remember and choose not to forget.
Every time my name is spoken, my memory revived
I feel it, I know it and I am there to show you what I couldn't.
I'm here now, and that's what matters.
I didn't mean to hurt you, I know that gets said alot,
but when you remember me, I know you remember the good times
My smile, my hugs, my baby words and first steps.
I gave you all I had and you have all I am.
I am you, and will never leave your heart.
Mom, I miss you, and love you.
I'm sorry you had to bury your child, it's not just a part of life
I robbed you of your son, cheated you of future memories.
Don't be sad for me, for I am living within you
I'll be here for you, just say my name Mom and I will be right there.
I'm not gone, I'm right here, speaking from your heart.
I know you can hear me, you keep me alive.
Love,
Me
Author notes
It was awefully hard to feel what I needed to so that I could write this. I hope that It's not too sad, you really can't be cheerful when you know the circumstances behind the letter. I hope it's decent for you. It's a letter from the suicide victim to his mother.
Silver Trophy in Contest: Help me help someone else.....
Written June 9th, 2005
A contest entry
- Help me help someone else..... by Raggedy Ann.
300 points, ended June 16, 2005, 12 entries
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This was a tremendously touching and beautiful letter, and it is obvious that you have gone into your heart to feel how you would feel if it were you. So hard to put yourself in anothers shoes, particularly if you do not know them, or much about them. Great write, and well done Kx
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Sad, beautiful, heartbreak
This is a mighty powerful write. I hope that this is read by someone who might be contemplating taking that fateful step; that it might make them realize just how devastating the pain and heartache is for the loved ones who are left behind. It is sad when a person is down so low that they cannot see past their pain to stop and realize that with each new day is a hope for a new tomorrow.
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this is so sad! wow, very good though... everything that you wrote flowed really well, and there wasn't a word out of place. Keep it up, you are doing a really great job... thanks for the comment on my poem.
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You are welcome. I must say this was very difficult to write without placing too much emphasis on the death itself and more on the life after and the love we leave behind. I'm glad you like it.
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It's excellent, exactly what I'm looking for. Your words say so many things that I feel like Chad's mom (Mrs. Liz) needs to hear. Thank you so much for entering my contest!
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