All my friends go to Southwick
But I go to MacDuffie.
They see each other every day,
But I see them an hour each week.
They have others they can turn to,
But I have only them.
They have strongly-crafted friendships,
But mine were born through cheap illusion.
They spend lots of time together,
But I'm isolated by a gender difference.
They have lots of fun together,
But I ency them because of it.
For eight months I waited for her,
Wanting only for her to be mine.
For eight months I was a fool,
Blindly accepting her bullshit and lies.
For eight months I was an idiot,
Clinging dearly to non-existent hope.
For eight months I've hung onto something,
Despite knowing it was wrong.
For eight months my common sense was suppressed,
And deception was allowed right in.
For eight months I've let my life waste away,
And how much more I don't yet know.
I am an outcast among my friends.
I am a fool with my emotions.
I am a failure with my life.
And if life is a game then I've lost.
Author notes
Here you have it folks, another POS poem from the local whiner about how hard my life is and how I can't deal with it on my own despite the fact that there are plenty of people who deal with worse every day. Feel free to comment on my lack of emotion all security, and integrity as you see fit.
Written June 7th, 2005
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sad....so very very sad do you still feel like this???
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of course I miss you...and the poem wasn't even taking into account the fact that my internet was down...which could add a new dimension to the poem if i felt like whining any more about it being down then i already do...see you sunday for crew...oh...idk who said they'd be going but since you have contact w/ the peeps spread the word that my dad says after were all done they cam come back to my house and we can all go swimming (assuming they can find my house)
so yeah...see you then or possibly talk to you between then and now
thanks again for posting these poems for me -
i guess that is a possibility considering your joining crew now...its becoming an organization dedicated to the whole group of us people...glad you liked it...i wrote it after 1st the crew meeting that you were at...the one w/ the pizza
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do not
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And I am not oblvious if you were me, you would have thouht the same thing. Ben needs to label his poems better. ALOT better.
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Squall we really all do feel lonely at times....and i know you prbably can't even stand to look at me or read this and i completely understand but i just want to tell you, you're not alone. if it weren't for you i would have never been as happy as i am now...YOU are the one who introduced me to everyone, YOU are the one who got my lazt but onto all poetry, it's all because of YOU that i can smile. i hold you as one of my highest and closest friends and dont ever forget that.
-Kisa
i'm sorry
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Kate you are oblivious...this wasn't exactly about you...
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Thanks rikku for telling me that I was wrong, that poem broke my heart. This poe is soo sad. I thought that I was the only one who felt like an outcast who felt like they didn't belong. I am glad to know thre is someone on my side. And Ben don't worry so much, you are becoming almost as Emo as me(that very emo).
Love ya babe,
♥Kate
Edited on Jun 09, 4:22 p.m. because 'Rikku corrected me'. -
Sounds good Ben... I know that we were never really that tight of friends or anything, but I get this a lot... Hope we get to know eachother more and stuff! Nice job ♥
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Well you are not alone in your lonliness, I will tell you that. I do wish that we could see each other more though becuase at the moment you are the only one I can talk to, so that means that I haven't been talking much lately. I realy miss you, and by the sounds of it you miss us too. Oh ya, and both this and the other poem were excellent. Love Rikku
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