I’m sitting down
Staring at the ground
Holding a gun in my hand
Ready to take a stand
Against myself
I stare down the gun
I’ve just come undone
I’ll pull the trigger with my finger
And I won’t have to be afraid anymore
I’m tired of living, sick of trying
I’m not smiling because I’m dying
And it all ends now
As I stare down the gun
The gun’s fully loaded
And I’m ready to go
It won’t take much
Just a small second of pain
To end my life that’s in vain
I stare down the gun
I’ve just come undone
I’ll pull the trigger with my finger
And I won’t have to be afraid anymore
I’m tired of living, sick of trying
I’m not smiling because I’m dying
And it all ends now
As I stare down the gun
Goodbye to this world so cruel
Enough of fighting a duel
Against myself
My destiny is down the gun
Because everyone else has won…
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Written June 1st, 2005
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Hey watch it! You damned near missed and got me
I think before even attempting to shoot oneself you have to take target practice 
Like why even mess around with guns ..that's just going to make a big bloody mess. There are plenty of other ways..hmmmmm I know, put on a Barry Manilow cd and listen to Mandy or watch Jeopardy
Bravo for your song writing talent - see i told ya i would come and visit Glad i did
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Dark the normal say, Morbid the unconscious minds scream, Heartwrenching the weak whisper, Typical-of-a-Teenager the elders grumble, Great Read the lazy mumble, and so on and so forth. As for me, I say I've read too much of suicidal poetry that I've become rather indifferent to it all.
However, I've written much the same when I really was suicidal. No one cared, they all thought I was just writing, never giving thought to the fact that I meant every word I said. Made me even more depressed to think that my friends and family couldn't even see what I was saying, didn't seem to know me at all. Just felt the need to say that.
All in all, well written, but a better topic is needed by everyone these days, in my personal opinion.
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Very dark but very well written.. I loved it.. great write hun..
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wow Owen dark very. like u. i am not that surprised u wrote this!
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Takes Owen's gun away and slaps his hand! Give me that gun you silly boy! Have I not told you a million times that you cannot play with big boy toys and I certainly don't want to have to clean up after when you are done!
All joking aside my sweet young AP son... this is sad and mommy don't like poems like this. You can skeet shoot though! I do like seeing you post poetry though. 
♥ The "Other" Mommy!
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omg... thats a really good poem.. dark and had to deal with someone who really doesnt like life.. life is good for everyoen you just have t find a way to make it work.. i love this poem.. i look forward to reading more from you...
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