I can't go to sleep. She watches me, she hurts me. Can't do anything because she is there and I can't escape her. Please make her go away-take her out of my head. Give me back my dreamless sleeping- someone give me some release...TAKE HER AWAY!
Swallowed and empty, I can't fight my own fears. I'm too proud to do anything, and can't let anyone see my tears. (TAKE HER AWAY!) She's not just in my dreams anymore, she's inside my head all the time and she's always hovering around me. She never leaves-she's never going to let me go. I am hers', she's in control.
She told me I can't escape her, and I knew it wasn't a lie. But I never thought it would be this bad. I think I'm going crazy, what other excuse is there? Why else would I see her? Why else would she be there? I'm so tired of waking up screaming, there's only so much I can take. But after I realize she isn't leaving- I feel like I'm going to break.
I'm haunted with flashbacks and I can't sleep because of my dreams. I'm slowly losing my mind-I can't focus on anything.
Don't let her get me, please make her go away. I don't want anymore therapy-but without it she's always around. I want to tell my family about this, but they won't do much to help. I know them, they'll just wrinkle their noses and throw me into another round of counseling. Please just make her go away...
(You're mine.)
Please make her let me go, she's always around-I can't fight her off.
(There's nothing you can do to get away from me.)
Don't let her control me anymore.
(You do whatever I tell you-DO YOU UNDERSTAND?! YOU ARE MIND! YOU CAN'T THROW ME AWAY!)
Set me free, take me away from her. She's scares me so much, I can't make her go away. She's with me in my sleep and when I'm awake. I feel like I have some sort of disease and I don't know how much more I can take. It's more that just my mind in pain-it makes my body ache. It's more than just withdrawals -it doesn't even COMPARE to this!
(You asked you someone to always be around you-YOU ASKED FOR THIS!)
I never wanted anything like this, I only wanted someone who I could relate to but she came along-the unwanted guest that won't leave.
(You'll never get away from me, you won't last very long without me. Not unless you want to wind up as some babbling lunatic that people read about in the papers. You're nothing without me. You never WERE anything until I came around. I hope you're proud of yourself because now that you have something perfect, you want it gone.)
Please someone helo me, just take her away. Bring back my sanity-don't take me away. I can't do this anymore. Don't let her get me. Someone help-I'm begging you, make this all a giant nightmare.
Don't let her drive me crazy...
Author notes
My Cat's name is Bones.
this IS a poem, but in story form because if i were to make it a poem it would be INCREDIBLY long and confusing. so yeah...
Written May 30th, 2005
A contest entry
- Several options for any kind of writer. by FountainClassics.
300 points, ended January 29, 2006, 7 entries
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Kami, you always painted it best. Tell that B to go F herself. I wish I had time for AP again and I'm going to make an effort. Talk to you sooner than later.
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Ok thanks. I almost figured that, but I wasn't sure so I decided to ask you...
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all you have to do is click 'judge entries' and then pick the entries.
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How do you give people the tropheys?
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what's the question?
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I read this before and I still like it! Ok I have a question for you if you happen to be on right now...(Its 11:55)I'm kinda puzzled so yeah...
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Aubrey, thanks for the comment hun. She was like the Dark Man for a while and she's still around, but now it's different. Instead of making me do things, she shows me things...you know my story "The Diary"? That would be the things that she shows me. It's hard to explain, but yeah, no worries.
Thanks for the comment and the support hunni, loves you.
~Kami
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Kami.. this is really wicked... I just don't know what to say. I know you've told me about her so many times when I was up there, but it been about a couple of months since the last time you had said anything. Is she still there?? Is she anything like the Dark Man?? He's one scary as.s MoFo. Well, if there's anything that I can do to try to help you out, just let me know. Now I'm just like one click away, and you know that. I'll be up in November, so if I or Chris can do anything, just let me know... K? I loves you and Miss you!!
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wow..... I'm at a lose of words... This ...amazing.. Good Luck in my contest..
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honey this has completely creeped me out....wow im sorry this is happeneing...if you wanna talk, im here....woah. im creeped out now! love ya
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omg... hun your totally freaking me out... *ahh* maybe you should go and see a doctor about some sleeping pills or something or no wait.. drink lots of coffee so you dont sleep or something.. ahh i dont know.. maybe if you think about her being gone in your next nightmare you will kill her??? i dont know i am just really worried about you, hope your okay
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~Joyus
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the 'her' i'm referring to is a woman that has been in my nightmares these last two weeks. she makes me do things like kill people, myself, cut and all that good, fun-loving wholesome american crap. only know, i don't just see her in my sleep, i feel like she's always around me, and i can't get away from her.
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Hmmmmmm....That kind of made me think...who is it that you are scared of? From the look of Alex's comment, it's a real life threat/scare or whatever you want to talk about it...I'd really like to know more, but if you feel I shoudln't that's fine...it's not really any of my business, just curious. Good luck with whatever you are dealing with sweetie.
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damn hunny. you told me about this,but i didn't know it was this bad. you really need to tell someone about it. i can tell you're scared in this poem. i wish i could help you,because you've always been there for me.
~Alex
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