It feels so good to feel
Frozen in the headlights, self-anesthetized
Deadened, no sensation, she’s over-stimulized
Raised on blood and carnage, a vid-iot casulty
So fucking overloaded, her emotions mostly siezed
She wants so much to feel, she's sending out a plea
Though it’s never intercepted so she suffers silently
Drugs don’t help, they make it worse, what’s a girl to do?
Her new best friend, a shiny blade, will surely help her through
She cuts so she can feel, it’s the means that never fails
She goes right to the edge, but never off the rails
Devotion to her savoir, a secret love affair with steel
It feels God! It feels so good, it feels so good to feel
(please read the Author Comments below for my motivation in writing this)
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Author notes
I read so many cutting poems here and I wanted to try something from a different perspective, outside looking in. The piece, to me, really talks more about the current state of humanity than the actual act of the cutting itself. I believe the act of cutting is a symptom of a much larger problem we all face. On a daily basis, we are bombarded with so much bullshit from so many mediums that we have become conditioned to be over conditioned. In the game of advertising and news, you need to go to further and further shocking levels to get through to people because we are not easily shocked anymore. In a sense, we end up doing the same thing to each other, be it father to child, boyfriend to girlfriend, child to parent, we find ourselves needing to go farther and farther with our efforts to communicate, just to get through, to be heard above the insane noise level all around us. We all have our ways of "cutting through" the incessant racket; it's become a tool for survival. What is your method?
Written May 29th, 2005
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i liked this it was a powerfully, emotionall descriptive poem, the flow was good and it was consistent throughout BUT why did you have to swear, i know people swear in life i do, but in poetry i feel anyway, there are so many words you can use and you have done so, i just think there is no point in swearing in poetry sorry!! lol abigailxx
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This poem reminded me of a person that I hadn’t seen in a long time. The subject matter really got me to think, like any good poem should. The only negative thing I have to say is I have never been a fan of the “F” word in poems. Even with that in mind, it is a wonderful piece. Thank you for sharing it.
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I think that you've done a great job in writing this, although the topic choice is not my favourite. Your phrasing and language is beautiful, but certain words that relate to the topic just seem to be unsuited for a poem of this quality.
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hmmm... i personnaly HATE poems related to cutting etc, therefore it is gonna be hard for me to critique this fairly... but one must try eh.
I supose it was a good poem, you used some fantastic vocabulary, escecially throughout the first stanza.
So yea, i'd really like to give a more in depth review of the poem, and i will make up for it by going through another of your poems or something, but it's really hard to do this when i really do hate the theme of the poem! sorrrrrrrrry! but it was well written so well done! -
I think it's good that you can express the tragic nature of self-harm through describing why people do it rather than resorting to graphic and violent descriptions like so many others.
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this is a good piece and the picture adds to the brokeness and fragmentation and coldness of it all- the coldness of steel and the inability to feel i think. very well pieced together poem.
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this is a very interesting (and well-thought out piece). packed with imagery and it gets the mind thinking. your author's comments add a lot to the piece (in seeing where you where going with it). i really enjoyed the first stanza - great wording, emotion, and subtle rhyming. i was less fond of the rhyming in the following stanzas (they fell into being over-used and cliched). however, overall a very powerful piece that leaves the reader with something to think about. keep up the good work. thank you for entering and best of luck in the contest <3
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very influential form of writing here and so full of imagery and tact that I feel this is more than just what you say in your author's comments. it HAS to be on such a larger level - I am glad someone finally wrote it down and told the world. I am curious though if this tool of shocking the world really works? Maybe instead of shocking the world to get a voice.. maybe we need to keep silent and only touch them to get thier attention rather than a slap in the face...
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great writing and excellent style -
I forgot that I already had clicked on this poem and told you how much I liked it. I am so sorry for wasting your points as it was not done intentionally. I still like this poem very much!
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Linda
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She wants so much to feel, she sending out a plea
Though it’s never intercepted so she suffers silently
This is a situation I think everyone thinks they're in at some point, but so many people think they're alone in feeling alone its crazy that communication is so difficult. I really agree with your author comment, particularly "we find ourselves needing to go farther and farther with our efforts to communicate, just to get through, to be heard above the insane noise level all around us". My method of cutting through the racket is by standing up and shouting. The shock of it makes others stop for a few momnts and realise just how mych noise they had been making with words to "fill the spaces". In my opinion the spaces sould be cherished. Silence is golden. I cant bear not having the time to think.
Excellent poem, I really understand your thinking.
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Great
I have worked with many individuals, both young and old,male and female who were cutting or taking drugs because of the bombardment of emotions that they could not handle. You have captured their pain eloquently. Great job! -
Very good
I do think you did a very good job. You say you have never cut before? You did do an amazing job in putting yourself into the persons views and feels. Great job. It really is an awsome write. -
Interesting
I really enjoyed reading this poem. You have really set this apart from the typical cutting poem, due to the fact that the perspective is turned.
I never could understand why people found satisfaction in cutting, until I asked a friend about it. She explained to me that the pain keeps her mind off hurtful issues in her life.
You have thought outside the box, and that is what makes this poem so interestng to read -
Incredible and raw.
This one is chock full of raw emotion and it goes to something that I said a long time ago that they want to control you no matter how they go about it. The painting certainly matched the descriptive passages here and I for one would not change a thing. -
Very well done! Great job! Keep writing!
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Oh this is sharp, but very very well written. You have gone through an experience? you have show so much of feeling there, so much of sensation. you have done well with that. Wish you all the best in the contest.
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good poem unlikely subject
I amtrying to ask cutter poets if they have been checked for porphyria, bleeding makes you feel better, your body releases endorphins too and it helps es[ecially if you are seratonin defecient. Just wondering Hugs Ann -
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awesome poem your a good writer and i liked the whole idea "outside looking in" thing that was awesome and i think this poem really spoke to me (lol never said that phrase b4) any ways good write!!! keep it up hope to read more from you soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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A great write to such a sticky topic,made the reader feel as the cutter would.I agree with your thinking and liked your stlye.
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When I was young, to ease your pain and control your life, it was starving yourself to get attention that really worked.Or in the early 80's and late 80's 'ludes were the way to take you away!!Now I feel helpless to help those who need desparately to be paid attention to. And now with two working parents, school shootings, suicides, the pproblem is getting worse. OH how I wish we could return to the days, where girls burned their bras in protest, and boy's did panties raids on the girl's dorms. Life was much easier then, and mom was usually at home. You wrote an excellent poem from the outside looking in and I praise you for seeing how much pain teens are in. Great poem!
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Linda
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