Who else is there here on earth
to remember my two angels in heaven?
A perfect little girl
and her wonderful younger brother -
they both wait
for
me.
It happened seventeen years ago
and then again thirteen years ago.
Two miracles conceived in love
and devotion and renewal.
Both wanted and waited on
and wished for for so long.
Two little miracles
who never made it into
my
arms.
Lost before birth is what
I first believed.
Lost and never to be found.
Lost and never again to be
sweetly rocked in my body
or gently sung to and
caressed by
my
fingers.
But I named you both.
Elaine - you were named in my womb
after your grandmother.
Joseph - you were named in my womb
after your uncle.
If you have names,
how could you be gone?
If you have names,
how could no one else know
how much you are still loved in
my
heart?
My angels.
I missed you so when you became
my miscarriages and not
my newborn babies.
I cried and screamed and turned
away from
my
God.
Losing you Elaine made me lose
what little faith
I had in God.
I turned to the dark side and
drank away my pain with
glasses of poison
and tonic.
But my love for you remained
and I couldn’t understand why with
my
mind.
But losing you Joseph made me find
what little faith I had
lost five years earlier.
Losing you and finding Jesus
my Savior
saved my life is so many ways.
Your conception was no accident.
Jesus planned to use you to bring
me back
to
Him.
Little Joseph,
because of you I turned to Jesus
for answers and found
what my heart
and my head
and my body
needed.
I found healing in my Savior’s
love.
In Jesus I found happiness
and the peace
that passes
all
understanding.
For the Lord showed me
that my little angels
were in heaven waiting for me.
I know that one day I
will hold baby Elaine
and baby Joseph in
my own
arms.
But for now,
I know that they are being held
ever so tenderly
in the loving arms of
God
and I am here on earth
remembering
them
today.
Author notes
This poem is about my love for my two miscarried babies. It is also a great testimony of the love and faithfulness of my Lord. He is so good to us!
Thank you Sam for giving me the opportunity to write this piece. It's been a long time coming but it is good to remember and know that we will be reunited even with our unborn babies. Perhaps this poem will help someone else heal. God is so good.
This won the gold trophy in Angel of the Sky's contest "Sad love, New Love, Old love, Love in General " 7/26/05.
graphic from www.loveandhonesty.com/sets/angels/twoangels/angels.jpg
Written May 27th, 2005
In a list
A contest entry
- Click here! Everyone else is doing it! by crushed.
600 points, ended June 3, 2006, 9 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Magic to the heart by AngelKissez059.
300 points, ended March 20, 2007, 10 entries
Bronze trophy winner
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Honorable mention
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Comments
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Such a sad write - my comment for this will be short, because it is neither of my mind nor my place to critique this, or offer suggestion improvements, for the very reason that this poem clearly came from the heart of your very being - and you and you alone, know it to be true -
Nor will I attempt to offer words of comfort, for I am sure that no words of mine could heal any part of your hurting, but, I will agree that they are safe in heaven now, and waiting for you...
Thank you for sharing this with us
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WHAT a sad but wonderful poem, sorry for your loses but am happy for your finding your faith and you will again be reunited with Elaine and Joseph, it must of been very difficult. Very heartfelt write, they are the poems I appreciate most Thank you for entering your poem and good luck in the contest
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Oh my. I have a lost son, he was stillborn (Joshua). This poem is so well written and full of pain & hope. I am glad you were able to find your peace. Thank you for sharing your favorite, and best of luck in the contest. Congratulations on all your prior trophies for this piece, they are much deserved.
♥
whisper
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Awww this is wonderful but so sad. I can relate as i have lost two myself. God loved them so much that he didn't want them to suffer here on earth, so he took them back home. I can't wait for the day to see them again. but I have to wait a long wait for I have been blessed with two boys and a girl. Can't wait for you to see your precious babes again. Thanks for this write.
God Bless
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So sad and yet deeply uplifting. God is holding a child of mine also, again, long awaited. I had an early miscarriage. I named her Julianne, and we planted a tree, a Japanese white pine, which today stands tall and strong. I remember feeding the tree iron and crying, as though that was the closest I could get to feeding her.
Two years later my miracle son Timothy (honoring God) was born. He is 16 years old now.
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God is a miracle-working God. Although I never had my own children, I am as close with my grown step-children as I would have been with children of my own. And my little 2 year old grandson is living with me and loves me. I am his grandmother for sure. God does make miracles happen.
Love and hugs dear one
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Heartfelt
I can relate to this piece because my sister had a miscarriage while expecting the birth of her second child--I recently wrote a piece upon request from a fellow AP member to a couple who have lost to children
--One by miscarriage and the other was lost as an infant--Heartbreaking--You may wish to send this couple this beautiful work that you have penned!--
the piece I sent them is on the link below----->
http://allpoetry.com/poem/3933107
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Heartfelt
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A LOVELY AND BEUATIFULL POEM, touched my heart. xxx
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"If you have names,
how could no one else know
how much you are still loved in
my
heart?"
What a sad poem and yet a powerful
poem of hope and belief and love.
good luck in the contest.
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A very beautifully written poem. I am so happy you have found such a wonderful new outlook on life and found your saviors arms. Thank you so much for sharing these two beautiful memories with me.
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wow. This poem gave me gosebumps. I loved this poem so much it's so full of pain an despair but at the end it fills the reader with a feeling of hope. Thank you so much for entering my contest i wish you all the best in my contest and in life. xXx
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This is very sad but touched my heart in more ways then you could know as a mother who has lost a baby. I truely feel your pain. Thank you for entering and Goodluck
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Thank you
When I read your author page, I could feel the pain of your great loss. Your author name touches my heart. We have precious stars in heaven waiting for us. God bless you abundantly. - joanne
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this was a sweet poem. although I cannot allow this to stay in this contest for your poem is much to long. sorry.
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Love it! god is sooo good to us and he helps us with our pain. pain only makes us storng physically and spiritually and emotionally. GReat job keep it up
Thansk for entering and good luck! ♥kelc
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omg i am so sorry. this is beautiful. thanks for your entry and good luck to you.
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This is precious. I can remember those feeling exactly. It took my heart and ripped it to shreds. I could not understand why God could choose ,me.... of all people... I wanted babies from like 6 years old on. I was sooooo excited when I found out I was pregnant. So when I lost them both. I was devastated. I have a whole section on my page called Miscarriage list. It has a bunch of poems on how I felt and what I wanted. It was really hard for my second one. My husband being a pastor and I had to hold up a strong face. I struggled inwardly while portraying acceptance of my loss outwardly. I finally gave it to God about three months after the miscarriage. I know I will always carry them in my heart. I named my second one only. She was to be Nazareth Parker Kryger. We deemed her a girl as well. I was about 8 weeks and I could actually feel her inside me. Our first loss was very early and it did not hit us as hard. We just figured it was not really there. Then we found out we had the RH factor and that was basically the reason for our losses. It was sad because it could have very easily been remedied. Nonetheless, we are happy now. God has blessed us with TWO beautiful adopted children ages 9 and7 now. Thanks so much for a beautiful poem.
Because He Lives,
Beka -
Thank you for this sincere and touching entry. I know one thing that makes loss easier is knowing you're not the only one who has lost. This contest was dotted with poems from other women who have gone through the unbearable pain of losing children, and I think Stephanie will appreciate that.
Elizabeth
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A poem from the heart as this is needs no judgement as it holds your love for your two angles God Bless them
i too know this pain i am the mother of 3 angles Thomas, Jacob and Samuel and i am sure they are with my grandma's in heaven awaiting us and watching over us with care
love
Karen -
This is just heartning to read....I wrote a piece called my shame...I could not write in detail very much of what I felt just an abstract of its sorrow....called it my shame..its on this site. I have others..but will never let others read it...this writing is just simply wonderful...and beautiful...I feel all the things you feel...without the pain physically...still the pain inside touches me real and true...
Huggs baby...I pray for them too.
Malabu -
Dearest Joann,
I am so sorry that you went through this pain. And I know how you feel. I lost 5 babies with in three years. Four of them were miscarriages and the other one was a tubal pregnancy. Their names were, Erica, Helen, Kalab, Jeremy, and Angel. They never made it, but they are still my babies. NO matter what anyone says, i know they are with our Lord above. You are in my thoughts cause i know of the pain this brings.
YOur poem is very beautiful. Thanks for sharing this with me. Many blessings in the contest.
Tammy
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Such a touching piece one child would be hard to lose but to end up having two that would be even more difficult. You've written such a heartbreaking expierence yet the love for them shows in this and how God used this situation to draw you closer to him. I am sorry though you lost two babies thats so sad. Excellent write even in the deepest pain of this there is hope that you will see them again some day.
Sherry~
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This brought tears to my eyes! You write so sweetly and beautifully about such tragedy. I'm glad you found God again and that he's given you such strength and courage.
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Exquisite, moving.
i av a lot of faith in God and i feel fortunate that ive never had a situation in my life to make me lose it. But your faith must be even stronger if you can find it again after 2 miscarriages. best wishes for the future and thank you for such a tear jerking read, i feel really moved. absolutely exquisite. -
Thank you so much Joann for entering our contest.your story is one of pain and finding God!I hope others in our group will enter this! It is such a worthwhile cause! I, myself had 2 miscarriages and 2 of my sons have cancer. I have myself, just recovered from colon cancer, so thank you for such a heart wrentching write. Best of luck in getting this published!
God Bless.
Namaste!
Linda
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Lovely entry
This is quite lovely. A lovely sweet poem of remembrance Thank you for your entry and best wishes. Ann 4A
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This is a very, very powerful piece, wow, great job, this was very touching, wow. That is all I can say, wow!
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This is a very powerful piece. I can relate to you because I have lost a baby. I wasn't pregnant for too long but a little miracle was still growing inside me and that ended. Thanks for telling your story
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This was very powerful, and heart wrenching. The loss of my sisters 10 year old, and then her unborn a year or so later was and enigma to me. I never loss faith, but I sure cried WHY...no reasons given for my little niece, no reason found...but God knows the reason. My sister never once turned her back on God, and that angered the devil even more. God blessed my sister with twin boys, April of this year. They will never take the place of Cayla...and my sister says its like living a new and different life...but she knows she is blessed. I can see, feel and hear the emptiness within my sister...but her joy in the Lord is replete.
This is a very touching write. Thank you for sharing it in this contest.
Sam
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Wow. Very powerful and very good. I'm in awe of how well you have written this. You have MAJOR talent. I LOVED this part
But for now,
I know that they are being held
ever so tenderly
in the loving arms of
God
and I am here on earth
remembering
them
today.
It was so touching, after all that pain you went through that that realization came to your mind.
This is a well written, heart felt, unique and most important of all a poem true to you.
Thank you for sharing this, and I am so sorry for ALL of your pain, truly I am.
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Melissa -
Oh dear ...... how dreadful to go through all that. It made me cry reading this poem, which is so full of love. You are a remarkable person that you are able to write such a wonderful poem about this loss in your life, but also about your gain: accepting Jesus Christ as your Saviour. Great write thelordreigns. God bless you!
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Awww. So absolutely sweeeeeet! Hope mixed with sadness...It's a combination that's hard to pull off. You did it beautifully, the truth shines through, and it has the little sign that everything will be okay.
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what a beautiful poem, and a beautiful statement of faith. Reading it brought tears to my eyes. While it is a sad poem, it is also hopeful - the hope of seeing your two children in Heaven.
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this poem is saddening and breath-taking, yet is from the truth of heart. i am sorry i cannot applaud for i have too little points, but congratulations on your fantastic writing!
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I am happy to hear that you found comfort from your loss. Your words are so beautiful. I too have experienced loss of a child and found solace in alcohol, ashamed to say, I still do. Reading your poem gives me hope that I too may one day find peace despite my own loss. Great job!
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This is so terrible. Two babies lost? I lost one and it almost killed me. I too have turned away from God. It is hard to understand...why
I haven't reached your level of understanding. Hopefully I will.
Such a moving poem. This brought me to tears.
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HOw stunning and touching this is. Yes you will see them again! Wont that be so awesome. It will also be wonderful to know they they never suffered the heartache and pains we suffer here -
This is truely an great poem. A great piece of imagery and exactly the kind of poem I should be reading right now due to the fact that my daddy's sick . So Thank you!
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a beautiful poem of health and healing.
Make me bawl will you, a pastor I once had told about how after family lost two daughters from a freak accident, they were playing in their front yard, when the brakes went out a car at the top of the hill and was heading right for one when the other saw and tried to push her out of the way, but only put her also in the path, instantly killing them both. When the minister went to comfort them everyone was smiling and laughing looking at pictures of the kids talking about their antics, the pastor was awed, the mother came up and said won't youstay and help us celebrate pastor, we don't have two little girls anymore, but we do have two angels in heaven, he stayed. God bless you. -
I feel your pain in this poem. This piece has great imagery, and the choice of of words shows that you put lots of thought into it. I enjoyed, I'm glad I read it. Thank you. Peace.
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Powerful piece of writing that comes straight from your big big heart. I could not imagine the emotion poured into such a piece and the investment these words have in the world. TOny.
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beautiful
This is such a lovely piece. Thank you for sharing it with me. I know that God is my strength and comfort in my sadness of losing my baby to miscarriage. I do not understand why it had to happen, but I know I need to keep holding onto God.
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Beautiful tribute
Very few pieces have or move me in such a way...You gave me both goosebumps and watery eyes.
Some times its always hard looking for a reason to which we endure certain things.
However, from this perspective it seems as if it has given you new refound and stronger faith and a means to reach and touch people. What better way to help others or give impact, but to first know what trials they have faced firsthand?
Such a way you surely touch others with these words, but also to give a most cherished tribute....beautiful
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Hello my friend. You brought tears to my eyes! The poem is beautiful, sad, and perfect! The picture captures them exactly as one would imagine them to be! My heart is with you. Peace, Syah
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This is such a sad heartfelt poem it's enough to make anyone's eyes water. I'm sorry you had to go through this expirience, but I'm glad to know you see the light at the end of the tunnel, and you see it very clearly, and that you understand that God turns everything for the good of those who love him. This poem was very well written, full of hope and love, and very powerful. Well scripted and best of luck in the contest.
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This brings tears to my eyes, Joanne. Although you know one day you will be reunited, at the time it's hard to look that far ahead. That would have to break anybody's heart. I know about six months after the loose of our daughter, I had a dream of her in heaven, sitting in the grass with blond wavy hair, laughing and clapping her hands together and I know that was the Lord allowing me to know she was growing as she should and was happy. It brought such peace to my heart.
Beautifully written with such love and tenderness. Bless you.~vj
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