A thousand heartfelt goodbyes
Four hundred pools of tears
Three million warm embraces
Two hundred passionate kisses
Six thousand bruises and cuts
Six hundred fights and arguments
Six billion apologies
I thought this was going to be easy
That my life would be the perfect one
But now,I sit here trembling
With hands wrapped around a loaded gun
I polished it so nicely
My reflection in it so clear
Placed the finest bullets inside
Without hesitation,showing no fear
I licked my dry white lips
Looked to the sky and said
"Why have you forsaken me?"
In a voice so cold and dead
I pointed the barrel to my throat
Swallowed once or twice
Then pulled the trigger silently
Saying my last goodbyes
SIx billion apologies
A thousand things unsaid
Three hundred unwritten tales
Eight million forgotten "I love yous"
Ten thousand unsuccessful suicides
Three confidants alone
Two loves gone horribly wrong
One crushed beneath the weight of it all
Six Billion apologies
I've said my last goodbye
So never look back,
Remember me not
It was time for me to die
Author notes
Choppy? Well no shit!
Written May 8th, 2005
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Oh my fucking god! That was amazing! (shuts mouth after gaping at the amazingness of it all) That was the best poem I've read all day. I'm singing praises in your name! Yay!
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wow.. this is really awesome... its been a while... we need to chill, i miss you and love you julie... i hate when people take suicide poems to be so serious... you wouldnt kill yourself... right!?! right! yea... so i love you and keep up the awesome poetry...!
i love you and we really need to hang out...REALLY REALLY!!!
mwah!
katie!
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Jewelz this was such an awsome piece and i know you would never do that at least you better not or i swear i will kill you. anywayz what is going on julie god i have missed hanging out with you guys this week i am totally fucking tired of staying at home it is like prison i can do nothing say nothing or anything it is driving me crazy but this weekend will be great because i don't have to stay at home woo-hoo yes yes yes i am so happy but anywayz once again nice wirte me likes much very and keep up the good work.
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Well, I must say I agree with everyone else. YOU CAN'T DIE!!!!!!! That is with 6, count them SIX !'s. You know that that is important. I love you Jewlz! Hang in there. What ever is going wroung will blow over soon. Love you, Angie
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Oh wow. that's just friGGen amazing. lol. friGGen amazing. I mean what the crack. lol I dunno. well ur poem rocks some major FACE..
<-- that face. Yeah what?? that face. it's so SMILEY. SMILEY like Ralph Wiley. .. er sumthin. I dunno. I just dunno. So anyway, I think I'm givin u a friggen applaud cus I think very strongly this poem deserves one. yeah so anyway, peace out ~MiCaeLa~
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JEWLZ NOOOOOOOO!!! you can't you just can't not yet not till your old and grey you hear me. i won't let you even if i have to walk down there to stop you i love you jewlz ok so don't go nowhere love you
Teddy -
ok so this is really dark and if someone else wrote this than I would love it because then it would be someone that I don't know and don't care about. You have a lot of things going for yourself in your life right now. Sometimes it's easy to drown yourself in negativity but there is ALWAYs a lesson to be learned or an up side. I've been down and I think that you would be one of the first people that I would call if I was feeling like it was all soon going to be over. You can lean on me too anytime. That's what family and friends are for!
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jewels, you are not allowed to die without my permission, and you already know that the answer is HELL NO!!!!!! Everything will be fine, remember it gets worse before it gets better, and i believe that things have already hit rock bottom and can't get any worse, and the way it looks, tyheings are getting better, very slowly but it is, we just have to give it a little time, and be a little more patient, even though we don't want to! LOVE YA!!!!
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yeah die ok.You can't with out asking me first and I'm going to say no.I mean if it didn't kill me to lose sean then your car and all the other BS isn't going to kill you either.I love you and anything you need that I may have is yours.I loves you to death ok.So no diey diey ok.great write
fleabug
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