Run away train

ROAR

AHHHHH

*scream*

WHY must this world be so cruel...

the heart lies on the ground..

the beach was wonderful, fun of sand and happy thoughts.  Times past of children running and kites soaring.  Why must it bring the memories of pain with it?

the agonizing telling of what is what.  Why must someone love you so much, and you feel nothing for them?  the feeling of uneasieness clibs up into my thought.  bunny spelling.

i hate this i bunny hate this.

I hate this feeling the feeling of guilt the feeling of regret the feeling of crap.  

i think the school is getting to me.

i want to tell some one so bad, EVERYTHING.  everything that there ever is ever was of me anything and everything.

my box holds me back

i feel i am a floater, i am there, the person you say hi too, and then vanish poof.  gone.  no one is there, i am stuck in my own mind thinking of what went wrong.  repeating over and over like an old record player with a bump in it.  this, this feeling of hatred.

I want to just plung into a deep dark pool...

and not return.

I scream mentally, while the endless whispers hit me from side to side. toying with my every move.