The one you lost

Can you explain this thing i feel?
I go through each day like it isn't even real.
Coming home each night expecting to hear your voice.
I am denied, denied each night by your lack of f*fucking choice.
You used to come to me, as if i were that ONE piece detached from your life, from you.
Now that emptiness seems to have been filled, but this time i can't forgive, this is something you can't un-do.
Sometimes I'm pissed off, sometimes my anger explodes on paper and sometimes i play with the idea of sending it to you.
But i won't, because...my letters pierce your heart and...you don't deserve that, it's not worth giving you that clue.
So, as often as i uncontrollably think of you, it's no point in you wasting your precious time!
All along, with you at my side, i never was happy, never felt anything, until now...now the whole world seems to be mine.
So if you want pity, I'm not here.
If you want a daughter, remember, YOU made her disappear