Maybe....
I am not your ordinary person
But why would I want to be?
I confuse myself so often...
where does truth begin,
and illusion end?
If you see me walking,
a tired, I am afraid
empty expression
I hide sometimes
so they won't judge me
So many things I would do
If I was not afraid
of what they would say,
or do
denying myself Becoming me
I am changing that now
I am being me
BOTH
not one,
nor the other
BOTH
just.....
please accept me All I want is acceptance
don't judge
Just accept
Please....
So tired
so tired
The eyeliner smudged
strokes of hand to wipe away the.... fear, anger, hidden....
so tired
I would have white....angelic
but they would not let me do so
I would have a mask of improvements beauty
to fit with my image
Could I be beautiful in others eyes?
the normal ones
ones who cannot see
cannot accept
what lies beyond reality dreams
Dreams are my abode
lair for recovery
hiding place
from judgement
I Can be both there
no longer discernible as one
or the other
both
but you would never let me do so... pain
NEVER
That is why I fight
myself
inner turmoil so great
....difficult to understand....
Pain, love...
are they real?
Why can I not accept myself?
Should I feel guilty.... NO
but they make me feel so...
wrong
malfunctioned
I wish to be
I AM
I am both always
Please....
I can no longer hide
I am what I am
please don't make me hide.... ...please...
Author notes
This is really just a collection of thoughts....mostly about acceptance, cos people would look at me if I was what I wanted to be...I am both minded...that is the problem...That affects my image...gothic and lots ofmake up and stuff if I could and wasn't too worried, but that is me....and I don't want to hide, but they make me
please don't make me hide...
Written April 20th, 2005
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heeey dont worry lots of people can accept u...tash and lexi can, polly can c-hippy can and kenaz can so there
u r accepted we all love u 
well i do more than them tehe a hell of a lot more than them
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wow, this is a really good poem, I don't know you (but I go to the same school as you!) but don't let anyone stop you being who you really are. Great poem.
C-hippy x -
You are beautiful!
"Could I be beautiful in others eyes?
the normal ones"
You are. And pure. angelic. In heart, mind, body and soul.
And who knows more about your soul than I do?
Love you.
XxX
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dont let them crush the real you, i love you for who you are. this piece is very good but i guess kinda confusing. love it lotsly though. stay strong
love ya
polly xxxx
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