Homesick
So many thoughts swirling through my head
Early in the morning and at night when I go to bed
I feel I am in a no mans land, though with those I love
And your presence Lord is so close, streaming down from above
I am far from home, but where I know I need to be
And yet this morning early, I felt hot tears, wanting to release
I have become so used to the quiet, contemplative life you've given
Not the pace of many going in their various directions, fast living
I am Homesick for that small abode, though far from family and clan
It is where you have planted me for the time, originally not in my plan
I see wars and hate, families dysfunctional, children with disrespect
Walking in a World so foreign to what you have taught, I am clearly a reject
I sense your love and strength every day of my life
But all around me, far and near, there is discord and strife
For years you have worked on me Lord, to change me inside
I said I would let you shape me in your image, in your love abide
None of my life has gone as I thought or desired it to be
I imagined a few times of hard places and then a pleasant life I would see
Many tears I have shed as you shaped, molded and rearranged my views
Ofttimes I felt alone, afraid and bewildered, but felt faith growing anew
I said I would go anywhere, be what you wanted, lay aside my own way
Let my roots go deep in your Spirit, please take my pride, I'll walk with you each day
As I pondered my heart and it's yearning, I began to think of so many others
Who are heartsick with tears, fears and loneliness, for children, wives, fathers and mothers
Soldiers in far off lands, fighting and suffering, thinking of family
Many have died and others struggle with duty in strange, unknown territory
I thought of those in war torn lands, drought, killings and hatred abound
They don't even have a home to yearn for, many whose family can't be found
America has so much we take for granted, even when we suffer in pain
Comfort and plenty abound, though in our lives come dark clouds and rain
Today I know that I am not alone, others too feel this way
Not only when they are away from home, sometimes just in a day
So many thoughts swirling through my head
Early in the morning and at night when I go to bed
sharon
April 16, 2005
Author notes
I am at my son's home in California and his family. He has lymphoma and I have come to be with him during treatment. These words sprang from the feelings I have during this time.
Written April 18th, 2005
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Hello Irene,
I just saw your response right now on this poem and thank you my friend. I think it is true that we just don't realize how good we have it here in this Country. And sometimes I think of how nice it would be to have peace and no more sickness and pain, but I know that we grow through all of these things. If John continues to do as he is doing... I may be able to go home in a week or so. The Lord willing.
Love, sharon -
Thank you Sherry, for reading and leaving your thoughts. I was meaning Homesick for my own apartment but also I know underneath is that longing we all have to be with Him and to have peace from strife and sickness. Bless you my friend, love, sharon
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You said we take so much for granted and we really do. In this land of plenty it is hard to really understand the meaning of hardship. God has blessed us mightily and we often take it for granted. Your words always hold so much meaning and faith that I look forward to reading them. Bless you my sweet friend and may you be able to return home soon. Hugs, Irene
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Sharon,
I know you probably miss the comfort of your home, whats that saying there is no place like home. Yet I know you love your son enough to be there for him and the Lord to do his will. I am guessing though this could mean more homesick for missing your home. It can also mean heaven just for the pain and suffering not be anymore in the world right my dear? ((hugs))
Sherry
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