Thank you

i try hard not to be the bad guy
but loneliness has captured my heart
and every word i express to you
feels like the rapture has sparked
the evil ones left behind
the innocents raised above
im not bad for the evil i do
but because of my expressions of love
i want to hold you, embrace you
know your inner most thoughts
but it seems that i disgust you
so even to heaven im lost
the smallest phrases i utter
makes you shudder from utter distaste
perhaps i should shuffle off this mortal coil
and leave you no more disgrace
for there's no opera that held such a phantom
no cathedral that held such a beast
as the one so in love with you
pray Lord let this madness cease
call me, posthaste, back to the essence
burn my ashes to nonexistence
let my soul linger in limbo
none would know the difference
you never had a design flaw
even Satan's a masterpiece
so i know this is the plan for me
but please Lord, just let me leave
you wont give undue pressure
i've heard that a thousand times
pressure i don't mind
i don't even mind the dying
its just so hard to see and focus
through all the tears im crying
and i know you know my mission
and your visions much greater than mine
but i don't want to exist like this
your world is too unkind...

Then a shadow fell across the earth, and the clouds begin to drift apart.
The sun shone ever brighter as a VOICE began to speak:

MY SON, I AM THE DESIGNER OF ALL THINGS AND YOUR DESIGN TO ME IS FAMILIAR
I NEVER DESIGNED YOU A SOUL MATE  I WAS A BIT APATHETIC
BUT YOU HAVE SURPASSED MY GREATEST EXPECTATIONS FOR YOU
AND NOW I HAVE GROWN SYMPATHETIC 
I WILL TURN TOWARDS YOU THE HEART OF THE ONE YOU MOST DESIRE.
NOW SLEEP MY FAIR CHILD AWAY FOR NOW...

then the sun dimmed, the shadow retreated, and the clouds merged

i awaken from my slumber lying next to you
and i can only wonder the things that we will do
my tears are gone forever
your smile has awakened anew
and i stare into the Heaven's
and whisper...

Thank You