My Love Letter

I dont feel well
I dont feel life
I have to end this and I shall
Have to end this torment
This hurt...and loneliness
There is nothing left for me here
Except a life with no purpose
Its not about having something...
Its about having someone...
No object can fill this emptiness
Nothing can heal me...nobody can heal me
Except she...

My heart cant let go even thou I know
It should have, long time ago
Why did she let me go?
It was good, almost perfect
Why let something good go?
Trading me in for...something
Something pointless, something bad
Am I worth that little?
I need proof that everything I ever did,
Was worth every breath of my life
I need to know if I was ever worth her life
I need her life, her love
For I have none of my own to live
Without life I'm a corpse
A tormented being looking for rest
And I shall put this corpse to rest
Doesnt anybody care? Why should I?
Tired of caring for a careless world...

This will be my note...
My suicide note...
Yet being dead already, inside and to the world
How can I end a life thats not there
No, this will be my note...
My note from beyond death
A tormented death where my heart cant live
And my soul not rest...
So alone...so cold...
I need to feel her, to touch her, to love her...to let me love her
There must still be something there,
there in her heart, must be a part, of me, of us that I'm missing
There in her heart she hopefully still loves me
I dont need her back, I just need to know...
Did she love me...and does she love me now...