There are invisible scars
all across my skin
zig-zagging all over my body
from the hate that lies within
Scars that would have bled
if I wasn't stronger than that
Scars that tear my skin apart
because of how you make me act
Scars that would have been cut so deep
they would have bled for hours
Anger at myself for breaking over this
wanting to punish myself with crimson flowers
But that would only be me
letting you win
That would only prove that
I can't keep this in
You will not be the reason
that blade touches my skin
I will not break my record
because of a friend
The invisible scars on my body
are the only ones that shall remain
to represent my self hate and anger
for others' sake, I will not inflict physical pain
This isn't even worth crying over
It's definitely not worth bleeding over
Author notes
Don't cut. Seriously. Ever.
Written March 23rd, 2005
In a list
A contest entry
- Deep, Dark and Pained by Avani.
500 points, ended April 16, 2005, 2 entries
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You're right, bro, I haven't written any cutting poems lately. I post all of my poetry now, honest. As for the past...well...I think we should all remember the past...as long as it isn't too painful to look back on. You take care too.
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Well here's another effort to travel back towards your past a little and here lies another one of the good old cutting poems of yours. Looking back at the old days to now, I can only guess that things have certainly been better, if not greater, than the past. I haven't seen one of these poems from you in awhile which is good news, but I will not forget that you may have pieces that you don't want to show everyone. So just for good measure, I hope you are not thinking of self harm right now. Got to ask you now though, what is your opinion of the past? Is it something we should cherish, or something we should forget? Take care sis.
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Sorry about the background, but I'm glad you liked the poem.
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Woah the background is killing my eyes other then that this poem was great ;p
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I was very angry with myself when I wrote that and the particular stanza that you liked stood for how my friend made me feel and act, which angered me, making me want to punsih myself. I'm glad you liked it though. Thank you for your kind words.
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WOw I love it, it's so emotional, so deep. I truly did feel your pain when i was reading it. I love how you write about the scars yet you didn't result in cutting. That really does take something, it's a hard thing to do but you managed it. My favourite stanza is most deffinatly this...
Scars that would have bled
if I wasn't stronger than that
Scars that tear my skin apart
because of how you make me act
I loved it becasue I wish that was how I had acted, how I had thought. Anyway, enough of my rambling, great poem and good luck, you deserve it...Emma xxx -
I take it one urge at a time and try not to each time...It gradually gets easier, I think and the urges come less too.
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what would that be?...cuz I could use some tips, at this point. hehe...point.
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Promises make it forbidden, therefore making us want to do it more. Perhaps you should try doing would I am?
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well congrats. and yes it is hard to overcome, and sometimes for me it even feels like i'm having withdrawals...and then I end up giving in. I promised my mom once and broke it, and then again and broke it...I was suprised at myself considering the fact that my mother's promise is word.
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It's a really hard thing to overcome...One time I promised never to cut again and I broke it many times...Then I just decided to try not to, and what do you know? Haven't in almost a year now.
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I understand, but it's good to have something like that...a promise....or a person to help to not to cut. I need someone like that, but what can I say, it's not my time. But I'm glad you dont cut, and I admire you for not breaking your promise...cuz god knows I did...hehe
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I'm glad you could relate to this. It is comforting to know that someone else understands sometimes. That is a lot of the reason why I like to post. To let people know they are not alone. When I wrote this poem, I was very angry, but my first cousin (the one I love) was there and I was not going to break my unspoken promise to him. I promised him I wouldn't cut that night too and I didn't.
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This is my favorite line:
Anger at myself for breaking over this
wanting to punish myself with crimson flowers
I really liked this is was very powerful especially since the fact that you didnt give in to the urge, because lots of poems Ive seen and written are usually about giving in. And the part about if you do it they'll win struck a chord with me...cuz that's what I say to myself whenever I feel down or suicicdal. And it's sort of a comfort to know that someone feels like I do...especially when it comes to self hatred and mutilation. Very powerful. -
Thank you. Have a nice day/night.
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this is a beautiful poem :-) i can relate to that a lot...nice job :-)
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No one is worth that. I love you and wish the best for you two. The poem itself is very emotional and speaks a lot. I think even more than the action would. *huggles*
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Thank you.
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I am not so weak anynore to put a blade on my arm because of something so trivial...I've apologized for what has been done, said and whatever else. Hopefully things will turn out OK. I may sound stupid for caring about losing her, but once someone has my love, it is hard to lose...She is a spacial friend to me, even though she doesn't seem to respect me. Thank you for commenting, mom.
It means so much to know that you are thinking of me.
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I am glad you realize that no one is worth harming yourself over...I still feel such pain knowing what you have endured and how you still suffer in silence...You are so special, so warm and loving...I hope one day you are only surrounded with those who deserve that love.
Love Tory-your AP mom
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great!
Awsome! I love this... -
Thank you.
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You're right. No one is worth bleeding over. Especially those who disrespect you. Thank you for your comment.
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Stay Strong i know you can fight look for a helping hand
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VERY well done! It's nice to see you can cope with your pain another way...I know what it's like to fight those urges, but it's true NO ONE is worth that.
Great Job!
Tisha
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