Confess

It’s been far too long,
I’ve never felt so restrained
Being locked up in these chains,
Some might say they’re arms.
Feel so drained.

I don’t want to ever hurt you,
I’ve been alone for so long,
I just can’t take this anymore.
They think I’m wrong,
I’m not so sure.

My skin grows pale,
I’ve lived and I’ve died for you
I’ve shed so many tears.
She tells me it’s just childish fears
I grew up long ago.

Where do I go from here?
Why must I do this to myself?
Lie to myself,
Telling myself I love you,
When deep inside I know it’s not true.

I tried to prepare myself,
Knowing I was young, and stupid
Knowing you were older, and wiser.
If only I knew you would push me into this
Trap me until I have no where to go.

You blame it all on me, telling me it’s all my fault
Telling me I’m in the wrong, making me feel nothing but guilt
If only I knew then, what I know now
Knew you would push me down, knew you would make me confess
Make me confess all the lies I told you, I kept this one

I thought I knew myself so well,
But then I fell
Only this time, not into love.

Nothing is ever really forgotten,
It just hides in the back of your mind
Until the time is right.

I should have left you long ago,
I should have told you how I really felt,
I never should have been so stupid in the beginning
I never should have listened to all your lies to keep me here.

I confess,
I’ll never be enough for you,
I’ll never be strong enough for you,
I’ll never have the courage to tell you,
And I’ll be forever trapped.