This is me.
I am here again.
I try not to feel it...
I was born, I was alive, I was happy.
I'm destroyed, I'm dismantled,
And now..... I'm insane.
I cried too much and now I've died,
Slowly with out a sign.
I couldn't save myself.
You know I didn't want to feel anymore,
So I let myself go...
Silence was present.
Screams were heard.
Shocked and dreaming I bury myself in my arms...
Pretend I'm alone.
I'm in my fiction and I love it here.
But I want you, please,
To bring me back alive.
There are so many things I want to say to you,
Yet I'm so distant that you can't see me.
I wasn't crying, not again.
I'm a liar but I swear I was.
Maybe you shouldn't know.
I could last forever in my own mind but,
Outside I'm just dead and skinned.
Save me now and I'll say goodbye.
It won't happen again.
I know what you all think.
Maybe I'm wrong but I don't care.
I'm just that different in everyone's eyes,
Though I shouldn't care.
I'll laugh out loud,
Nothing will hurt me.
Violent ways consumed my body
And...
I'm still being burned.
With a broken smile...
Shattered and scared I'll close my eyes,
Continue to smile with a deadly smirk
that you can't notice.
You won't suspect a thing when I torture myself inside.
Burn my body,
I won't deal with you anymore.
You'll just smile at me and leave.
I stab at myself and leave my inside...
Bleeding uncontrollably.
Unstoppable and unwilling,
I'll let myself die slowly
With out saying a word.
No one will see a thing
But that smile on my face.
Can you see that I can't save myself now?
I won't. Its only my own fault.
You can't help me,
This is what I'm doing to myself.
It's what I deserve.
I don't want your help.
I only want your love.
But I can see I'm too selfish to deserve you
In my scarred and bloody arms.
Author notes
this is a really old old one.
Written November 19th, 2003
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Holy **, this actually is deep for a cutter to be saying. I mean, I actually understand.Your rhythm was great, your words were spectacular! and The emotions I got from this was amazing. Its good you can write such a peom but then again poetry is something from life you are living.. and well thats not the best thing in the world to be doing, yes, i understand that too... but yet I still cut.. and well its understandable why a person cuts.. and your poem shows that. Great write. Applaudable and I hope to read many more of your worK!
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This is really cool. I like it was really good. I gotta go I am in school and I just had to say This is awsome. Now I got in trouble but your poems are worth it. Gotta go. Later.
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This is really good.. I have only read the first stanza... and well i have to go to school. I WILL read this when I get home and comment back again!
¤Samantha
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