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a near miss

how can i mourn for something
that was never even there?
the life never began-
so why is it i care?
i've always hated children
i never wanted one
but i sit and ache for the possibility
of your daughter or your son
you'd always wanted a little girl
to be beautiful and smart
but if she'd looked anything like you
it would have broken my sad heart
but even worse would be a boy
he'd have your twinkly devil smile
i'd love him more than anything
oh, heaven, to have your child

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please don't judge too harshly- i hate it too, no need to make me feel worse
Written February 28th, 2005

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  • hatememorestil
    March 23, 2005
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    blackwidow43-

    not crazy or vain at all- i feel ths way when i read a lot of poetry, and i tell them they are speaking my life- and they are- the human experience is broad- but no, i didn't have an abortion- "this life never got started"- that is conception- it never happened. . .

    blessed be


  • bw43
    March 23, 2005
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    wow. guess you had an abortion??? hmmm... i probably would too if i were to get pregnant. then i'd spend all my days crying over what i'd done. i hope i'm not pregnant. reading your stuff is like my life is happening to someone else too... sort of. in a way. just a little different. wow. i love your stuff... sounds crazy and vain huh? loving it cuz i relate... lol... sorry

  • hatememorestil
    March 10, 2005
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    well thank you- i thought this poem sounded trite, but i've had some nice responses... it's people like you that make me want to write- i'm glad you liked it
    Edited on Mar 10, 8:07 because ''.


  • WindUpEnigma gold member
    March 8, 2005
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    God, this piece just rips me apart, for more than one reason...awesome write, overwhelming...


  • masterblaster gold member
    February 28, 2005
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    you are not the only woman who has had these feelings ,they say it's genetic,this is n excellent poem with very human feelings, you did a great job explaining those feelings, don't feel bad about it, great little poem


  • HiddenBehindAMask
    February 28, 2005
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    Aww. Cute and full of emotions. Kids are cute, and I want one so bad. I only 14. Damn gotta grow some more! But this poem only makes one think about what they feel and stuff. Good job in this write and goo luck in the future! -Honey

  • Rayne-312
    February 28, 2005
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    I really liked this. Most people who have gone through a miscarriage might feel like this. Is this probably from the young father's point of view, as the pregnancy was an accident.
    Anyway I absolutley adored it, great structure and flow that tells a story. Keep up the good work.

  • hatememorestil
    February 28, 2005
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    well, thnk you- you should read some of my other poems- please. "i still hate me more" is my favorite- well, i'm off to read your poetry now.

    blessed be


  • IrrefutableBliss
    February 28, 2005
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    Wow. How could you say you hated this? This is really good. I really like the concept and the meaning. The wanting to have a child, but afraid, at the same time, of having him or her look like that person, or remind you of them. Great work here. I really felt your pain.

    Becca

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