The pain you still put me through
The pain you brought back up
The pain that I feel when I look into your blood shot eyes
The pain of an alcoholic
Staring right in my eyes
Yelling slurred words
Not understanding the marks you leave
The marks that scar my body
The marks that you leave in anger
Or the marks you leave with your words
Numb
Not feeling the pain
Not feeling the blood that drips down my arms
Or the pain of the black and faded bruises on my legs
Or the burning of that hand print
Sprawled across my pale face
Running
Running from the pain
The pain that you say I caused
That brought you to lift up the glass
Of your drunken fate
No matter how many times you say you're sorry
That you're sorry you strangled me the night before
I still don't believe it
But I come back for more
The tears running down my face
As I cry myself to sleep
The sleep that I wish would last forever
So I would never have to suffer again.
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Written February 28th, 2005
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Wow! That opened me up to a new kind of alcoholism. I am not very proud to admit this, but I rely heavily on the drink. While I've done some pretty dumb things while I'm drunk, I could never imagine putting my hands on someone the way you described in your poem. It was beautifully written; heartfelt and full of emotion and pain. While I sympathize with your situation, it fuels wonderful poetry. I hope that things get better for you, but from experience (as with any addiction) quitting is hard to do. I just pray that this person will see the err of their ways before its too late. Best of luck and keep writing!
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Thanks. And I will IM you soon, I'm just going to bed right now.
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Wow! This is such a great write! I really really like this one! You have got some great lines in there! I'm your new fan. I can really understand how you feel here. I used to drink.... and its so not cool how it can effct you and your friend, so this hits a personal spot. And thats were all the talent lies, is if you can make the reader feel. And you sure made me feel. So you have got some major talent. And I hope you keep writing. If you want, you can IM me on AIM:good byee lover. I hope everyone gives you good remarks about this one. Well, Hope to talk to you soon!
<3 Jessi
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